The McNease Journey

George Morris McNease

2010-01-24T08:33:00.000-08:00

Hello to All!

I can't believe that I am almost 2 1/2 weeks late posting but our little man made his grand debut on January 7, 2010. He weighed 5 lbs. 11 ozs and was 19 1/2" long. These past two weeks have been a whirlwind for me but I think we are starting to adjust and get in some sort of routine...atleast I pray so!

I know some of you are wondering why he came earlier than expected...well here is the story. Starting in the middle of December I began having some blood pressure issues. I went to the hospital and everything was good so I was sent home on "partial" bed rest. That was December 19th. The next week at my doctor's visit everything was "ok"...my blood pressure was still high, but came down after I layed on my left side and the NST on Morris was good. Doctor's orders was to continue to rest. Well the week after Christmas my blood pressure was way too high and I got admitted into the hospital for a "24 hour observation"...things looked good again...but this time it was STRICT bed rest. I was MISERABLE!!! Then on January 7th my blood pressure was high...it didn't want to come down quick enough...so after Dr. Benton talked with some other doctors...they decided it was time to meet George Morris.

We had our two week check up with Dr. Benton (yes our pediatrician is the wife to our OBGYN). Morris is a growing boy...he had grown in head, length, and weight...he weighed in at 6 lbs. 6 ozs.

He is a bundle of joy and we think he is absolutely precious! I am a nervous wreck at all times...checking on him 24/7 and making sure he is breathing...but everyone tells me that is normal behavior for a first time mom. Continue to pray for our health and peace and comfort. Hopefully I can post a picture soon! Shea has downloaded them to a hard drive but I have no idea where to find them! SORRY!

May God Bless You All!

Praising Him!
Bethany

Bed Rest It Is....

2010-01-02T12:06:00.001-08:00

I apologize for not posting in a couple of weeks but with the holidays and this pregnancy we have been SUPER busy. Our Christmas was wonderful. Very busy as usual and my sister and I have a plan to try and slow down some next year. Sometimes I think we go go go and don't get to just sit and relax and enjoy the time with our family and reflect on the true meaning of Christmas.

Baby Update:

My blood pressure has been somewhat high. I got a migraine headache one Friday and it spiked my blood pressure...so the next day I found myself in FGH (Forrest General Hospital) being evaluated. My blood pressure was great and I had to do a 24 hour urine analysis. It turns out that everything was normal. This past week I went to see Dr. B. The fluid around Baby Morris was still in a good "normal" range. His NST was good...he was wide awake and moving like crazy for Cindy. He usually isn't this active. But on a negative note my blood pressure was high and I had a "trace" of protein in my urine. I was checked (I have been dreading this for a LONG time), but I must say it wasn't too too bad. I had not dilated, but maybe thinned a little. After much debate with Dr. B we decided I should be "observed" at FGH for 24hours to make sure things were okay. This was totally precautionary and was done to ease the mind of Dr. B and ourselves. Of course, my blood pressure was perfect in the hospital, blood work was normal, and another 24 urine analysis was good. PRAISE GOD! So what does all of this mean??? BED REST for Bethany!!! I had been on what we called partial bed rest since my first visit to FGH but now I am confined to our house and can do very little. Fun Fun! Dr. B really wants Morris to stay put until atleast the 38 week mark, and maybe even the 39 week mark...Which is 2 to 3 weeks away. I keep telling myself I want Morris here and healthy so I will sacrifice whatever I need to do to accomplish a healthy baby. One to two weeks could mean the difference of going home with a baby or one that stays in the NICU. We have experienced the NICU and even though the doctors are wonderful I really don't want to go back. We know that God is in complete control of this situation. May His will be done!

So now I will be home. I will be able to work from home some which is good because it will give me something to do each day, but mainly just be lazy. I guess this will be a good time to catch up on reading and movies. I ask that you continue to pray for myself, Shea and Baby Morris. You all have been so sweet and kind to my family and I am forever grateful. I guess I better go lay down again...and watch football. There is not much else on TV.

Praising God...
Bethany

We will wait another week...

2009-12-17T08:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we started our weekly visits to the doctor. These visits will include an ultrasound, NST (non stress test) and doctor visit with Dr. Benton. The ultrasound is always first and went well. Baby Morris had a normal amount of fluid which is a good sign with his kidneys. His left kidney is still dilated and his right kidney is borderline dilated. In saying this, Angel (the ultrasound tech) said the structure of the kidneys still looks good. Yesterday we got to see him make some breathing motions with his chest...that was really neat! Angel said that sometimes you get to see this and sometimes not so I feel like it was God giving me a sign to calm down!

Next was the NST. I got to visit with Cindy (NST tech). She is so sweet and was so wonderful with my time with her during my pregnancy with Mary Glenn. It was good seeing her, but I told her I wanted different results this time! The NST is a monitor that measures the baby's heart rate, fetal movements, and contractions. The techs and doctors like to see a good range of heart rates and lots of movements. At first Morris was asleep and his heart rate stayed around 135-139 and of course he didn't move...HE WAS SLEEPING!!! Well Cindy had to "zap" him twice to wake him up. The first time he didn't like it and I think Cindy jumped and I screamed...too funny! But the second time wasn't as tramatic on my little man. He woke up...gave me good movement and also a range 140-160 with his heart rate. Cindy was satisfied.

Then we went to see Dr. Benton. My blood pressure was high and Dr. Benton was not happy. He threatned to make me slow down, but I promised him I would. After I layed down on my left side my blood pressure went down...my urine was clear and I was free to go for another week!

Thanks for the prayers. I will go back on Wednesday to do it all again. Keep up the prayers!

Praising God!
Bethany

7 weeks to go...

2009-12-04T11:16:00.000-08:00

It's hard to believe that we have 7 weeks to go until we meet our sweet baby George Morris. I had a doctor's visit this week and things are still looking good. Morris measured to date at 32 weeks! He weighs 4 lbs. 2 ozs!!! We got some cute 4-D pictures of him too! His left kidney is still somewhat dilated and his right one was in the range that the doctors are okay with at this point in pregnancy. In regards to the left kidney...Angel (ultrasound tech) explained to Shea and I that the kidney being dilated is because of something on the outside of the kidney...most like his utterer (spelling???). Both kidneys look really good to her and in tact. She showed us how one would look that would bring big concern to them and Morris does not resemble that at this time. The fluid was good around the baby too which is another good sign the kidneys are working as they should. Dr. Benton seemed pleased with everything too! I absolutely love my doctor. He has to put up with alot with me as a patient...I worry and freak out very easily!! Bless his heart...he is CONSTANTLY trying to calm my fears! I will go back in two weeks. Starting then I will have an ultrasound and NST (non-stress test) on a weekly basis. At first I got upset that something may be wrong and this is why I am having to do these test each week, but it is something Dr. Perry in Jackson recommended. The ultrasound will be to check AFI (amniotic fluid) levels. This is to watch the dilated kidney. If something was to go wrong with his kidneys, the fluid level would drop. The NST is because of my past history with Mary Glenn. I just pray this time it is a different experience. I always hated the NST with Mary Glenn because she never moved and she was so small that it was hard to keep a good heartbeat on her. My appointment in two weeks is December 16th.

We also pencilled in January 21st for my c-section!!! That is in seven weeks. As much as I am ready to meet this little guy...I want him to stay in the womb as long as possible to make sure he is as healthy as he can be!

Thanks so much for all your prayers....they are definitely working. Shea and I appreciate them all so much. I ask that you continue to pray for us. Pray for health for Baby Morris and myself, pray for his kidneys, pray for continued good growth and healthy/positive NST test! Also pray for peace and comfort for Shea and I...and as always pray for God's will to be done.

Have a Merry Christmas!

Praising God...

Bethany

Happy Birthday Mary Glenn!

2009-11-12T18:55:00.001-08:00

Well I have dreaded the next couple of days for a year now. Today marks one year since I gave birth to my sweet angel Mary Glenn. Tomorrow marks one year since I said goodbye to that same angel and she met our Lord and Savior. Wow what a year makes. Every time I even begin to think of what happened a year ago it brings tears to my eyes. God forever changed my life November 13, 2008 and I am forever grateful to Him. This morning has been filled with many tears...happy and sad. I smile every time I think of her opening her eyes. Most chromosomal babies don't open their eyes much...Mary Glenn was different. It was like she knew she wouldn't be here long so she wanted to check us out good. I laugh every time I think of what she thought of us...I think I was crying every time I got to lay eyes on her so she probably thought her mom is a little on the wacky side. I cry every time I think of her suffering for those few minutes before we decided it was time for God to take her home. I smile every time I think that each of us got to hold her free of wires and tubes...and how she went home while I was holding her. I cry because I miss her more than words can express. I smile when I think of how Dr. Henderson prayed with us and we sang Jesus Loves Me.

As I type this I wipe tears away from my face. I can't help it but I want her here with me. I want to see her face to face. I'm selfish. Oh but I know that she is not sick right now and she is dancing and singing God's praises right this very moment. She is having the best birthday that any of us could ever ask for...she is celebrating with our Lord and Savior. I know that Mary Glenn would not want me to be sad this day...so I will try my best to be strong for my baby girl. I often feel guilty when I feel these times of sadness...because I know I shouldn't. I should be so proud that she is in Heaven...the most beautiful place...with a healthy body...no sickness...no tears...learning about her grandparents...and celebrating with God.

As I think over the year...God has done so many amazing things in my life. First and foremost He has brought me closer to Him. I am learning each and every day more and more...and it will always be a learning process, but I have grown so close to our Lord and Savior and I am forever grateful. He has made Shea and I stronger. Shea is truly a man of God. To have watched him grow over the last year is so wonderful. He is my best friend and my husband and I love him so much. He has blessed our family. When life gives us trials to face you really see the people that mean most to you. Our families have been there for us every step of the way. God has given me such wonderful friends. Friends that care about me...my feelings and emotions. He has blessed us with a pregnancy. Baby Morris will never know his sister in this time, but I pray that Shea and I can tell him one day about how wonderful she was...how strong of person she was...and how she changed our lives for the better. So many more things that I could go on and on about...but right now my heart is too sad to gone on.

As I look back on November 14, 2008 I am forever grateful that I got to tell my sweet Mary Glenn...THANK YOU! God let me give birth to the most precious angel. WOW!!! I remember me telling her all things I wanted to say...God gave me that opportunity. We were not suppose to have one minute with her on this Earth and instead He gave us 20 hours! God is good! I love you all and I thank each and everyone of you for helping us through such trying times.

Blessed be this day that the Lord has made...let us be glad and rejoice in it!

Praising God!
Bethany

To God be the Glory!

2009-11-10T11:21:00.000-08:00

I don't know how to start this post...I am overwhelmed with emotions...and so grateful to all my prayer warriors. Today's visit in Jackson was a great success. From the mouth of Dr. Perry...Baby Morris is doing good. He doesn't see any major birth defects. His kidneys are still dilated...well atleast his left kidney is borderline dilated. His right kidney is looking better. We will continue to monitor with ultrasounds...probably in a month or so...and then ultrasounds after he is born. Dr. Perry is 90% positive this will correct itself at birth...so that will be our prayers!

As many of you know I have dreaded this doctor's appointment, but I am more relieved now. I am sure there will be anxiety until I see him face to face, but I am only human. Dr. P surprised me with some 4-D pictures of my little man. He is too cute if I don't say so myself. Someone asked Shea who he looked like and Shea said he looks like a baby...haha!! I am sure he will come out looking just like Shea...which is perfectly fine! Shea's a handsome guy!!! Mary Glenn had a good bit of Shea's features and I am sure this baby will be the same.

Words can't express my gratitude to you all. Please continue the prayers...they are working!!! Continue to pray for healthiness, growth, kidneys, peace and comfort, and God's will. Thanks to you all!

Praising God!
Bethany

Please Pray!

2009-11-09T13:49:00.000-08:00

This post will be short and sweet, but please remember Shea and I in your prayers. We will be going to Jackson for a morning appointment with Dr. Perry (high risk doctor) tomorrow. Please pray specifically for:

1 - Healthy Baby
2 - Good Weight/Measurements
3 - No Chromosomal Abnormalities
4 - Kidneys to look better
5 - Dr. Perry and his staff as they perform the ultrasound and give diagnosis
6 - Comfort and Peace for Shea and I
7 - God's will to be done

Thanks for the prayers!!!

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139: 13-14

Praising God!
Bethany

Doctor Visit Update

2009-11-05T10:12:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a day filled with many emotions. For some reason I had a lot of anxiety about this visit. I prayed and prayed asking God to give me peace and comfort...in which He did!

The visit was good. First I had to drink the lovely orange drink for my glucose test. Next up was the ultrasound. Baby McNease measured on scheduled. Praise God!!! He weighed in at a whopping 2 lbs. 11 ozs. Unfortunately, his kidneys are still dilated. We will go see Dr. Perry next Tuesday and get his opinion. From what we understand we will continue to monitor his kidneys on ultrasounds until Baby McNease is born. Once he is born we will have an ultrasound and then go from there. He can be treated with antibiotics at first...and then later if needed a stint...but hopefully it will be minor. This is very common in little boys. In saying all of this the fluid around the baby looks good and is in the "normal" range. The tissue around his kidneys looks good too. Please join us in prayer that the kidneys will heal on their own and we will have nothing to worry about. On another note...I passed the glucose test! Yippee!!! I had a visit with Dr. B too yesterday. He stressed to me that the kidneys will be ok and it is nothing to stress about...but if you know me I will stress no matter what!!!

Next week we will go to Jackson for the high risk doctor. I pray that this will be our last visit to Jackson (no offense Dr. P) We pray that there are no changes since we saw him in September...no abnormalities...no chromsonal markers...and kidneys regular sized. Pray for peace and comfort for Shea and I and ALWAYS pray for God's will.

Praising God!
Bethany

27 weeks....

2009-10-31T05:03:00.000-07:00

So I just noticed that I haven't blogged since 19 weeks...SO SORRY! I'm really not sure if anyone reads this anymore or not but just in case there is that one person out there reading I will update! We have made it to 27 weeks. The last time I saw a doctor was 24 weeks and Baby McNease was measuring on schedule. I will go to the doctor in Hattiesburg (Dr. B) next Wednesday for the lovely glucose test, ultrasound, and doctor's visit. Then the next week we will travel to Jackson to see the high risk doctor, Dr. Perry. I am nervous about all of the upcoming visits, but honestly I think it is just normal for me to feel the anxiety...especially in Jackson.

If you still read this blog please pray for our next two weeks. I pray that Baby Morris is healthy and growing on schedule...I pray that his kidneys are looking "better"...I pray for peace for Shea and I as we go hear the news from both doctors...I pray for both Dr. B and Dr. P as they "check us out"...I pray that this "may" be our last visit to see Dr. P (sorry Dr. P no offensive to you)...and most important I pray for God's will!!!

I promise to post after each doctor's visit!

Trusting in God...

Bethany

19 Weeks...

2009-09-02T15:13:00.000-07:00

To All...

Thanks so much for all of your prayers. Shea and I appreciate them and know this it is because of prayers we make it through each day. Our doctor's appointment went good...it wasn't perfect as I had hoped, but I will definitely take GOOD. Everything looked good except for a dilated left kidney. Dr. Perry explained all of the causes for this dilated kidney. We will watch closely in Hattiesburg and pray that this problem goes away. Dr. Perry told me that 19/20 times this goes away before birth. It is very common...especially in boys. Dr. Benton reassured me that this was common and we would watch it. Of course Dr. Perry had to tell me that this kidney issue is a marker for Downs Syndrome. If you all don't know me...my personality will now focus on this instead of the fact that it is common and the percentage of it being a Downs baby is 1 in 500. Because of my past history with Mary Glenn I will go back to Dr. Perry on Nov. 10th for a follow-up appointment. He explained to me before he scanned me that he would want me to come back around 28/30 weeks because things can change and he wants to scan again.

Please pray for me that I can relax and enjoy this pregnancy and focus on all of the positives with this baby. I am praying daily (most of the time multiple times a day) for peace and comfort to get me through each day. Will you please join me in this prayer? I have also had a pain in the back of my head (behind my right ear) and neck since Saturday morning. Everyone kept telling me that it was a tension headache and would probably go away after my doctor visit to Jackson. Well now it is still there and it won't go away! Dr. Benton called me in some medicine and I came home early today to get some rest but the pain is still there. Please pray that this will go away and give me some relief soon. I am now starting to get worried that it is something serious. I go to Dr. Benton on Friday so hopefully he can give me some advise on what to do next...or even better hopefully the pain will be gone by then!!! That would be GREAT!!!

Continue the prayers...as always pray for God's will to be done!

Praising God!
Bethany

Calling All Praying Warriors

2009-09-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted in a month or so, but I need all of your prayers today. Shea and I will go to Jackson this afternoon for our high risk doctors appointment with Dr. Perry. So far in Hattiesburg the ultrasounds have looked good, but anyone who has been to the high risk doctor knows how un-nerving this can be. The ultrasound today will be clearer and more detailed and the doctor will be able to take a closer look for any abnormalities with our baby. Please pray for a good report and also strength and peace for Shea and I.

Also...we got some big news two weeks ago...WE ARE HAVING A BOY! Shea and I surprised our families with the news by letting our mom's open up a little boy outfit. It was a lot of fun for everyone.

Thanks so much for the prayers. I will post later today with our results.

OUR GOD IS GOOD!!!!

For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope. Romans 15:4

Praising God!
Bethany

Baby Update...14 wks!

2009-07-31T11:30:00.001-07:00

I know I haven't posted in FOREVER...but I do have good reason. I will continue to post on the blog with baby updates, but I am also now a Facebook addict...so most pictures will be posted there since it is a little more private.

Today I had a regular doctor visit with Dr. Benton in Hattiesburg. Things went well and we heard the heartbeat with the Doppler. The heartbeat stayed in the upper 140s and 150s. When I was leaving Krystal asked if I wanted to be scanned...what kind of question is that????!!!! I asked Shea if that was good with him and he said he was fine with it...so we got to see Baby Mc today. Things looked good. Krystal said that everything she looks for at this stage in a pregnancy looked good. PRAISE GOD!!!! We will go back to Dr. Benton in four weeks and then to Jackson sometime in September...around the 20/22 week mark. Most times you will go to Jackson around 17 or 18 weeks but I learned today that is only because if there is a problem with the baby there is still time to abort your pregnancy. With Shea and I abortion is not an option so Dr. Benton felt like I should wait til 20 weeks or so and get a better picture of things.

Shea and I are so grateful to our Lord and Savior and praise Him endlessly for our good report today. Thanks for all the prayers and keep them coming...we got 26 more weeks to go!

Love,
Bethany

New York Details....Finally

2009-06-18T06:34:00.000-07:00

I can't believe its almost been two weeks since myself and two friends were heading off to the big apple...NEW YORK CITY! It was Rachel's 30th birthday...so she graciously invited Laura and I to join her in the city to celebrate. We left EARLY on Friday morning and returned Monday afternoon. All of us had been to NYC before and all had done most of the tourist attractions so this trip was very relaxing filled with shopping...Broadway shows...and of course eating! We watched a play each day...Little Mermaid on Friday...Rock of Ages on Saturday...and Jersey Boys on Sunday. We were the FIRST in line for Good Morning America on Monday...we got there at 5 AM! The sad news was we had a great spot outside to be on TV, but they didn't show the crowd until the last 15 minutes of the show and we had to leave early to catch our flight...BUMMER! At least we got some good pics!

Thanks Rachel for an awesome trip. I had so much fun!

Enjoy the pictures!

Bethany

The news is out....

2009-06-11T09:45:00.000-07:00

Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

After three weeks of holding it in I am proud to announce the news that I AM PREGNANT!!! Shea and I couldn't be more excited. I have been nervous and anxious all at the same time...but when my emotions over take me I just turn it over to God and ask Him to take over...HE IS IN CONTROL! Praise God!

Shea and I found out three weeks ago and told immediate family and a few friends, but we have seen Dr. Benton and then yesterday my favorite tech at the clinic Krystal scanned me and we got a heartbeat. What a wonderful sound. I am around 7 weeks and my due date is January 26th.

Shea and I would be thankful of your prayers for a healthy baby. Philippians 1:3-4 says "I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy." I know that I have a special angel in Heaven watching over me, her daddy, and her unborn brother or sister. For this reason I am thankful.

I will leave with a few verses...

1 Chronicles 16:34 - Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love and his kindness go on forever.

Lamentations 3:22-23 - The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

Isaiah 41:10 - Fear not, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed. I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.

Psalm 91:14-15 - Those who love, I will deliver; I will protect those who know my name. When they call me, I will answer them; I will be with them in trouble, I will rescue them and honor them.

And one of my favorites that I read with Mary Glenn...

Psalm 139: 13-14 - For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Praising God!

Bethany

Memorial Day...And Birthday Parties....

2009-05-29T14:32:00.000-07:00

This past weekend I had high hopes of laying out by the pool and catching some rays...but for those who live in the Hattiesburg area know that it rained for THREE days straight! So instead I relaxed inside and spent time with family. Saturday we did run over to a friend's house to visit for a little while before going over to eat supper with my parents. For Memorial Day Shea and I went over to the Greer's house for Charles' birthday. We had a good time and ended the night with a friendly competition of boys vs. girls...in TABOO. Guess who won?? THE GIRLS of course!!!

Wednesday night we celebrated my friend Rachel's 30th birthday at Walnut Circle Grill. The food was great as usual and we had such a great time with just the girls.

I ask for prayers for my uncle who is being deployed to Iraq in a month. He will be gone for 6 months and will be leaving a wife and two precious boys at home in San Antonio. We will all miss him dearly but know that our Lord and Savior will be with him as his protector.

2 John 1:3 - Grace, mercy and peace from God the Father and from Jesus Christ, The Father's Son, will be with us in truth and love.

With Love,

Bethany

Playing Catch Up

2009-05-22T11:15:00.000-07:00

I am going to warn you all from the beginning...This is going to be a long post full of pictures and update from the month of May. We have been going non-stop this month. The first weekend we had the Jefferson Davis Relay for Life walk on Friday night...a Homebuilder's Seminar at our church Saturday, and then we surprised my niece with Taylor Swift tickets!

Our relay for life team did exceptionally well raising over $13,000!!! We were the "GREASE" team..."Cure is the Word"!

The Taylor Swift concert was OUTSTANDING! The concert began at 7:30 with Glorianna peforming first...then Kellie Pickler...and last Taylor Swift. We left at 11:15! Taylor performed for over 2 hours! This concert was well worth the money! We surprised my niece Madison with the tickets the day of the concert. She thought that we were going to spend "special" time together that day...I dressed her up in a dress and cowboy boots...TOO CUTE! When we got in the car I turned Taylor Swift up loud on my IPOD and told her we were on our way to see her LIVE in concert...Madison was speechless! And for those of you that know Madison...her being speechless says ALOT!!!

The next weekend was filled with one of my best friends wedding festivities. Jamie Walker tied the knot with Scott Martin. We had such a great weekend with friends. Friday we had bridesmaid luncheon and rehearsal and dinner. Saturday morning Shea and I fixed breakfast for all of our friends in town for the wedding and then we all got to hang out by the pool for a few hours. Saturday night was the wedding and it was a BLAST!!! Shea performed his usual wedding song..."Never Been to Spain"...a special request from the bride. After the first song he had a double encore...too much fun! Sunday was such a hard day...much harder than I ever expected...It was Mother's Day. When we found out we were pregnant it was around the time of Mother's Day. I had such high hopes of my Mother's Day this year with Mary Glenn...holding her...and being so thankful to be a mother. Well as we know God had another plan for MG...so she spent Mother's Day with our Lord and Savior...but I can promise you that she was with me all day in spririt. I miss you so much MG...I can't believe it has been 6 months!

Here are a few pictures from the rehearsal dinner...

And the wedding...

Last weekend began with our nephew's graduation from Prentiss Prebyterian Christian school. Congratulations Ty! The rest of the weekend our friends Lori and Carson came in town to spend the weekend. Lori's husband Gerrod was off fishing so it was a good time to visit. I had so much fun with Carson. It is so hard to believe that he will be THREE in August. We swam...took naps...ate Hibatchi (Carson wants to be a Hibatchi chef when he grows up...haha)...visited with friends...and had a GREAT time!

Ty Daniels...

Here is a picture of Carson helping his "Uncle" Shea play the guitar.

Sorry for the long post...but I had a little house cleaning to do...I should be talking with you sooner next time! We don't have much planned the next two weeks...but I am preparing for my trip to NYC!!!! I am going to leave you with a few random pictures...

Here is Madison sound asleep on a raft in our pool on Mother's Day...She was totally exhausted.

Below is a picture of some friends that I work with...please excuse the fact that I am in a bar in my bridesmaid dress!!!

Without God it is utterly impossible. But with God everything is possible. Mark 10:27

Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. Galatians 6:2

Much Love,
Bethany

Four Amazing Years...

2009-04-29T14:34:00.001-07:00

Today Shea and I will celebrate our four year wedding anniversary. It's amazing how time flies. It seems like only yesterday we were anxiously awaiting our big day. God has blessed me with a wonderful husband. Shea and I were soul mates. This past year has been the hardest year of both of our lives...we have gone through a lot this year...some things that a couple may never experience. I can honestly say that I am a better person because of Shea. There is no way that I could have ever gotten through the death of my first child without him. He is my rock. Someone recently told me that Shea and I always looked so happy...my answer to them...WE ARE HAPPY! Even though we have faced a trial in our lives this past year, doesn't mean we can't still be happy. Do we miss Mary Glenn? EVERYDAY! But our Lord and Savior and Mary Glenn don't want us to be sad...our lives must go on! Mary Glenn is in a better place than her parents...and we can only wait our turn to go and dance in Heaven with her. Until that day comes Shea and I will continue to live our lives...we will continue to have fulfillment in each day...have fun in our marriage...love one another...pray about future...and wait and see what God has in store for us. I can't imagine!

On this day Shea please know that I love you more than anything in this world and thank you for being my partner in life. You are absolutely the best and my life is complete with you in it! I look forward to many more years to celebrate!

I love you!
Bethany

Spring Flowers...

2009-04-29T14:27:00.000-07:00

I love flowers! I always like to have spring flowers in pots around the pool and on the front porch. If you have ever been to my house I also have Iris' in the flower beds around my front door. Well I love it when they bloom...they add so much to the front of my house. I only wish they would bloom longer! Here are a couple of pictures! I can honestly say that I got my green thumb from my grandmother and not my mom! It must skip generations...just kidding mom!

Enjoy!

Jeremiah 29:11
For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope.

God Bless!
Bethany

I have been dreading this time of the year...

2009-04-22T18:59:00.000-07:00

Usually when April rolls around I am getting so excited about the warming weather...days out by the pool...weekends spent at the fishing camp with family...our anniversary...a few trips to the beach...and whatever summertime may bring, but this year I knew would be so different. Tomorrow, April 23rd will mark one year since Shea and I found out we were going to have a baby. I will never forget that day.

I was scheduled to have my regular "girly" appointment and I had told myself if I had not started my period that I would take a pregnancy test...just in case. Shea and I had been trying for two months and my doctor had already told me that she felt I would need assistance to get pregnant because of my medical history with my menstrual cycles. In fact, I was looking forward to visiting with the doctor to get a game plan. Well this morning in particular I got up early...took a pregnancy test and got back in the bed!!! YES....without even looking at the results. Looking back I think how in the heck did I do that...but I think I was half asleep. Shea wakes me up again to get dressed and I ask him if the test by the sink is positive...he yells out YES!!! I thought he was kidding. He didn't even know it was a pregnancy test. He just thought it was another ovulation test. We get the booklet out to make sure we aren't reading this test wrong. The positive line is SO faint that I don't believe the test. First thing I do is call my mom. Of course my dad answers and says mom is getting dressed and I explain to him I MUST talk to mom. He grumbles as says..."Becky...your youngest daughter MUST talk to you". Mom says hello and I say..."Mom, I THINK I am pregnant?!?!" Mom goes...What? You THINK??? What does that mean??? I explain to her that the line is SO faint. I send Shea to the Ramey's in Sumrall for another test. I take two more...all show the same faint line. So Shea decides to go to the doctor with me. The nurse comes in and I explain everything to her...I even pull out the pregnancy tests!!! HAHA! I do a urine test at the doctor's office and this tech comes back in with the results. The nurse says...well what does the test show. The tech so rudely goes..."It's faint." I am thinking...show some emotion please! The nurse says faintly negative or faintly positive? She says positive! Of course...I start crying. We were pregnant! How exciting!!! After the appointment I went to my parent's house because I had to see my mom. We cried some more and then I remember Shea and I smiling from ear to ear and going to Books A Million to get the book my best friend Lori insisted that I get..."What to Expect when Expecting".

I know that this is just the first anniversary date of my pregnancy with Mary Glenn and I have so many more milestones to go these next eight months. I miss MG more and more each day...and I even find some days harder now than I did a few months ago. It's already been over five months since I held my precious daughter and words can not express how grateful that I am of the time I got to spend with her. I will always remember my time rocking her in the rocking chair in the FGH NICU and the entire family and staff singing Jesus Loves Me. I also can not find the words to express to Mary Glenn my thanksgiving. Her little body and soul changed my life forever. As I try to improve my daily walk with God and lean ever more on His words I think of how MG blessed me beyond belief. My walk with God always needs to be stronger, but if I compare it to my life before MG...it's overwhelming how far I have come. Never does a day go by that I don't think of my sweet baby...rather it be when I get to work each morning and the first thing I see on my desk is my baby girl or if it is in my prayers when I thank the Lord for our miracle.

I ask that you continue to pray for Shea and I as we struggle through this time of the year. Shea and I pray daily that the Lord may bless us with another sweet child...a child of God...but while we wait on God's timing we praise Him! He is everything and I remind myself that I am nothing without Him. Our Father does not waiver...he still gives me the same peace that he did on August 20th when we found out the news of MG. My faith remains constant in our Heavenly Father as I know that it is He that gives me the strength to get through each day.

1 Peter 1:2 Who have been chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through the sanctifying work of the Spirit, to be obedient to Jesus Christ and sprinkled with his blood: Grace and peace be yours in abundance.

May God Bless You!
Bethany

A Picture Update...

2009-04-22T13:52:00.000-07:00

Shea and I have been on the go a lot lately and are ready for our lives to slow down! Here are a few pictures...

In March we went to see Jamey Johnson in concert with our friends John & Machelle. It was suppose to be Jamey Johnson and Willie Nelson, but Willie got the flu so Randy Houser filled in. Jamey is one of my favorite singers so I really enjoyed it!

I had a great weekend in April with my friends from college. It was Jamie's wedding festivities weekend. Friday night my friends Ashley and Katie came into town to help prepare for Jamie's shower. The shower was at our house Saturday morning. The afternoon was spent at the spa. FABULOUS!! That night we went out in downtown Hattiesburg.

This past weekend we had M.G. Dyess & Regions Annual Relay for Life fish fry. As usual we had a great turn out and so far have raised over $11,000 dollars!!!

Unfortunately I have no pictures from Easter weekend. It was a great weekend. Saturday, my sister in law & niece opened their new store in Sumrall...Nellbaby's! The grand opening went really well and I am so excited for them. Sumrall has needed a cute gift shop for a long time now. If you are ever headed that way stop by...its on Main Street. Saturday night after the fish fry Shea and I went to the Conn/Slay wedding. It was absolutely gorgeous and a great time was had by all. We do have some pictures from that night, but they are on my sister's camera so when she sends them to me I will share. Be on the lookout for a another post soon.

Love to All,
Bethany

A No Picture Post...Sorry!

2009-03-17T10:20:00.000-07:00

I know...I know...You guys don't like posts without pictures, but I have been horrible about carrying my camera around with me. I am trying to remember what we have been up to, but in honesty I can't remember. We have been going non-stop though...because I am extremely tired!!! We are hosting two wedding showers at our home in the next couple of weeks so we have been busy preparing our house and yard for these special occasions. Shea is building a deck off from the swimming pool and I have been busy planting beautiful flowers.

Since the last time I posted with have had a crawfish boil at our house with our Sunday School class...YUM! YUM! Shea did a great job with cooking the crawfish. I have also been busy playing lots of tennis and trying to get back in shape. Getting in shape is much harder than it sounds!!! HAHA! All of my extra time (the little that is left) has been used to helping my sister in law and niece open a gift shop in Sumrall. The new store is Nellbaby's and will be opening in the middle of April! We are all excited and I will post pictures of the store soon and give more details.

This week again is a busy one...last night we celebrated a co-worker's birthday, tonight is tennis, tomorrow is usually church but we are not having it this week due to Spring Break, Thursday is tennis again...and then Shea and I are going to Philadelphia, MS to see Willie Nelson and Jamey Johnson in concert.

Now for the most exciting news...

On March 29th our church family will vote on a new preacher...Sean Michael Lucas from St.Louis, MO. Shea and I are exciting about this news and are anxiously waiting to meet him. Our friends Ramona and Wade know him well and have told us many great things about him and his family.

I promise next post will have pictures...

Bethany

Just an Update...

2009-02-25T14:02:00.000-08:00

I realized that I hadn't posted in a month or so...I can't say that we have been doing a lot but here a few pictures...

Below are Gunner & Cannon Loftin. You may remember them from November. These twins were in the NICU with Mary Glenn and also their parents are close friends to Shea & I. Also there is a picture of the office girls from a recent Friday when we all wore red for the Heart Association.

The last Saturday in January my sister had some friends over for a bonfire and Shea and his friend Jeremy played guitars. It was ALOT of fun. Shea and Jeremy love to play together...

This past weekend Shea's friend and partner with work got married in Destin. Our friends Lorin & Shawn Jones went with us to the beach and we stayed in a beautiful condo...Thanks David! We had a GREAT weekend getaway. Congratulations to Kyle and Stacie. The weekend was perfect for a wedding...the sun was shining and the setting on the beach was picture perfect. Friday night we had a fun time at Rum Rummers in Baytowne Wharf and Satuday night our age showed as we ate and then went back to the condo!!!! Too Funny!

On a different note lately I have had a lot of people ask how Shea and I are doing and if we have seen the doctor and our plans for the future in regards to children. Shea and I are doing well and we are very fortunate to have the love and support from friends and family. I still have moments, but I think that is normal. I often think of the "what ifs" and it gives me an array of different emotions. What if Mary Glenn wasn't sick and she was with me now...what would I be doing? What would she be like? Or what if Shea and I can't have anymore children...what if the Lord's will is to not have anymore. Or I will hear someone complain about how their child didn't sleep or cried all night...I think to myself if only I had that problem. I want so badly to stop them and say be thankful...but I don't...I keep my comments to myself. When these emotions over take my every thought I turn it over. I can not tell you how many times during the coarse of a day I say..."Dear Lord - HELP!" That is the only thing that I know to do. I ask the Lord to take over and give my mind a rest. I know that God's plan is bigger and better than anything that Shea or I could imagine, but it is still so difficult to accept when I am a control freak. I like to plan it out accordingly and this I can't. Shea and I did go back to see Dr. Benton in January. After discussions with Dr. Benton, neonatologists at Forrest General, and Dr. Perry in Jackson we do not feel that genetic testing is necessary. We will turn it over to God and let him do His work through us. We will have faith in our Lord. The doctors do not feel that I am at any higher risk with a second pregnancy. So...I know what you all are thinking. When will y'all start trying to have a baby. Well, Shea and I defintiely want children soon. I have to give my body time to heal from my preganacy with Mary Glenn. When the time is right we will try and see what the Lord as in store for us. I keep trying to tell myself that the Lord may not want us to have a child...he may have a different plan. So if the good Lord willing...Shea and I will have another baby...when...I can't answer that...just in God's timing. In saying all of this I ask each of you to say a prayer for Shea and I to help us prepare for our future...whatever that may be...

I hope you all are doing well in the blog world.

Much Love!
Bethany

Calling All Prayer Warriors

2009-01-28T06:13:00.000-08:00

Normally I would not make a post about something this serious without knowing more details, but right now all I know is that a special family needs prayers!!! Shea's cousins' 4 year baby has been diagnosed of leukemia as of late last night. All of this has happened so fast. Yesterday the mother took the baby to the doctor because of a fever and she had noticed she was bruising easily. Her white blood count was extremely high and they sent them to Jackson immediately. Sometime in the middle of the night they confirmed what everyone prayed would not happened...she does have leukemia. From my understanding they will run more test today, do a bone marrow and in the next few days we should know what stage she is in and what the next course of action will be. I will keep you all posted.

I know that our Lord does not give us anything we can not handle, but right it seems so hard to see this in that kind of light. Pray for peace and comfort on this family...strength for baby Danika as these tests are so hard for children...doctors...and most importantly that this family will turn to our Lord for strength and guidance.

With Love,
Bethany

Girl's Night Out

2009-01-25T18:14:00.000-08:00

This weekend our church had a men's retreat with a special guest speaker...Joe Easterling who ministers a church in Thomasville, GA. Well the ladies decided we needed a girl's night out while the guys were away. We met up at Oscar's Mexican Resturant. This was my first time to eat at Oscar's but it was very good.

I must say a special note about this group of ladies. We are all in a Sunday school class together. Some of the ladies here I knew growing up, but most we have met through church. During my pregnancy I was very lucky to have such a strong group of women that love the Lord as much as I do. I feel very fortunate to have such a great group of friends that we can get together...laugh...cry...or just talk! Our Sunday school class is so wonderful and Shea and I could never re-pay them for everything they did during our pregnancy with Mary Glenn. Ladies if you are reading this...I had such a great time Friday night. We must do this again soon. Thanks for being so special to me and I look forward to making many more memories together.

A Nice Deer

2009-01-25T18:06:00.000-08:00

One thing some of my blog friends may not know about me is my love for the outdoors. I love to fish and hunt. Growing up my dad always was hunting or fishing during their seasons. So sometimes my sister and I would be lucky to go. Looking back I feel sorry for dad because I know I wasn't the best little hunter...I could never be that still!!! Thankfully Shea enjoys the outdoors too and we can spend time together outside. Usually once a year during the deer hunting season I will go for a few days and hunt. Most of the time it is around Christmas time, but this year it didn't work out. So I got the itch really bad one day and decided to drive over and hunt with dad, Shea, and Danny one Saturday and Sunday. Well it wasn't the best weekend for dad and I, but Danny and Shea had great luck. Unfortunately I do not have a picture of Shea's deer because I left at lunch and he stayed with dad...but neither had a camera. Shea killed an average 8 point and Danny's deer is below. It is a 9 point...22" spread...weighing in around 220 lbs!!! Congrats Danny!

Magdalena Grace Roberts

2009-01-25T17:58:00.000-08:00

In honor of sweet Magdalena Roberts a few of us at work wore pink on the day of her funeral as requested by her family. Below are Bridget Lee, Jessica Loftin, and myself. Our prayers will continue for this family as I know too well the days ahead will be tough and prayers will be needed. If you have not read about this sweet baby that changed so many lives please click here visit their website: http://www.noahandjulieroberts.blogspot.com

It's Birthday Time!

2009-01-25T17:51:00.001-08:00

Here are a few pictures from our birthday supper. The month of January...all in five days...we have three family birthdays. Terry's birthday is January 10th, dad is January 15th and then I am January 12th. Happy Birthday to me!!!

Terry, Dad, and I

Mom, Georgia, Nannaw, and Jo Ellen

Mouse Play

2009-01-25T06:23:00.000-08:00

Ok a little background before this post...I HATE MICE!!!! I am actually disgusted when I see a mouse...they are gross...sneaky...and for some reason I am scared of them. When Shea and I first got married we lived in the house that he grew up in. It is in Bassfield in the country. I would see a mouse and freak out. I will never forget that one time I saw a mouse in the laundry room and I didn't wash clothes for two weeks. Poor Shea. Well when we moved to our new house I thought...new house...no mice...right??? WRONG!!! Now when I post this please do not think our house is nasty because it's not. It is very clean actually...thanks to my friend Vicki who helps clean my house every other week. When Shea and I were cleaning after taking down our Christmas decorations we found mouse droppings in our laundry room. Well of course I made Shea clean out the cabinet...throwing away everything in the cabinet...I know that is a little extreme...but once again I HATE MICE!!! Shea succeeded in cleaning the cabinet where he found two dead mice. They had fallen into a tall vase and couldn't get out. I thought great the mice are gone. Just kidding. Shea had gone to the hunting camp and I was home alone on the phone with my mom when out of the corner of my eye I saw something...my first thought it was a roach...but worse...A MOUSE!! Mom says to let the mouse go hide and when Shea gets home he can put out a trap. So about 30 minutes later I was texting Shea telling him about the mouse when I look up and the mouse is back out...waving at me! I scream and it runs away. Shea gets home and the first attempt to the kill the mouse was horrible...no peanut butter on the trap...but no mouse. We have a smart mouse on our hands. Shea tries again and success!!! Yippee!!! In the midst of all of this Shea is going through our house fixing any little hole they might can get through. Which now people tell me they can come in anywhere because they can make their bodies get as flat as a pancake. Well we set another trap just in case that little mouse had a friend...and guess what...IT DID! We got another mouse. Then Shea was about to leave again to go hunting and the night before I told him I smelled something horrible...is it a dead mouse??? Shea says no. Well by 3:30 the next morning when Shea was leaving the smell had gotten worse and it was in fact a dead mouse. Poor Shea moved the dishwasher...looked in cabinets but he couldn't find it...it must have been stuck in the walls. I must say that the smell was BAD and lasted for like three days! Well we went like a week with no mice until one day Shea and I were playing rock band and another mouse came out. I screamed and the mouse was running in circles. Shea claims the mouse was sick but I don't care sick or not...I want it DEAD!!! So Shea traps the mouse in a closet where we keep the vacuum, brooms, and cleaning supplies. I stare at the door to make sure the mouse doesn't come out while Shea tries to find something to kill the mouse. He finds a mop and starts trying to kill it. I can say this now but at the time it wasn't funny...but now we laugh about it. Here are a few pics of my dear husband killing the mouse...it was priceless!!!

If you look real close you can see the mouse's tail...!!!

Girl Time

2009-01-25T06:09:00.001-08:00

Since college a few of my sorority sisters try to get together at Christmas time and just hang out. As the years have passed it seems harder to get us all together at the same time. Some of us live here in Hattiesburg, some on the coast, Mobile, and New York. This year Lori brought Carson and Melissa brought Cole. Let me tell you these boys are precious, but all over the place. They kept us entertained. Carson got mad when his Uncle Shea wasn't home so we called him in...Thank Goodness! Shea played and played with boys and they loved him. In fact Cole would have stayed with us I think...he cried and cried when he had to leave to go back home. I sat there watching and praying that maybe one day God will bless us with our own children to play with. As this year has passed a few of us have faced things in our lives that are very difficult..it was nice to all get together...talk...cry..and just hang out. I love you all very much and I hope we can keep this tradition for a very long time.

Christmas Day 2008

2009-01-25T05:54:00.000-08:00

Christmas this year brought on a total different meaning for Shea and I. I would be lying to you all if I said this Christmas was not emotional. I had planned on having a baby at Christmas time if not the week after. I planned on getting cute baby stuff for Christmas gifts. I planned on all the family coming out to my house to see Mary Glenn's nursery. I planned a lot, but God had a bigger plan. I must say God's plan was much harder but bigger and better. But as my dad has told me since I was a little girl...nothing worth anything comes easy.

I unfortunately did not take many pictures of the family...but I do have some cute pictures of my sister with her favorite Christmas present...a new dog! When Shea and I went to Nashville we brought home a Brittany Spaniel for my sister as a surprise. As you can the surprise was pulled off!!!

Georgia and Dixie

A Much Needed Getaway...

2009-01-24T18:41:00.000-08:00

Last year Shea and I had several trips planned that got cancelled for different reasons. Well when we got home from the hospital Shea and I planned a trip to Nashville, TN. We had such a great time. We stayed at the Opryland Hotel...WOW! That place is unbelievable. We spent an afternoon just walking around the hotel in amazement at the flowers and Christmas decorations. While in Nashville we toured the Ryman Auditorium where later in our visit we wen to the Opry, toured the Hall of Fame, went to How the Grinch Stole Christmas on Ice, Louise Mandrell's Christmas Dinner Show, and saw the Radio City Rockettes!!! ICE was wild. We had to wear these HUGE parkas and it was COLD! Everything in the building was made out of ICE. My personal favorite was the Rockettes Show. If you have never seen this I would highly recommend it. Shea liked everything about Nashville. It was right up his alley! The last night we were there we went to an old favorite restaurants...Chappys. For those of you who don't know Chappy's was located in Long Beach, MS but Hurricane Katrina destroyed the restaurant and Chappy relocated to Nashville. The food was the same...DELICIOUS!!! That night we also hung out at the famous Tootsie's Bar. TOO MUCH FUN!

This trip was such a nice getaway for Shea and I. We had such a roller coaster year...and one that we would not change. Shea and I enjoyed each other's company and we were able to relax!

Manger Scene - ICE!

IT'S COLD!!!

Your a Mean One...Mister Grinch

Decorations Outside the Opryland Hotel

The River Inside the Opryland

Louise Mandrell

The Country Music Hall of Fame

Shows Dearman & Waits...Having Fun

2009-01-24T18:02:00.000-08:00

The Shows Dearman and Waits Christmas party was held at Conestoga Steakhouse. As always the party was a lot fun. We added karaoke this year...who would have ever known such talented employees we have at SD&W!!! Rick was the big draw down winner. Congratulations Rick!!!

Pam & Mike Waits

Machelle...Is something funny???

Mark & Valerie Sanders

And the Winner Is...RICK!!!

Nick, Shea, and Kyle

Playing Catch Up

2009-01-24T17:47:00.000-08:00

Well, I haven't blogged much in the past couple of months so I am going to play catch up. I finally got pictures downloaded from my camera to the computer. I hope I don't bore you all with the posts! I will start with company Christmas parties. At the M.G. Dyess Christmas party we exchange gifts during the day and then at night we party down with a band. Unfortunately I do not have pictures from the night party but here are a few from the day time party. I absolutely adore my co-workers and I can honestly say that I work for an awesome family and have wonderful co-workers. Words can not express my gratitude towards my work family as they supported me throughout my entire pregnancy with Mary Glenn. If you are reading this post...I love you guys!!!

Brian and Jessica

Smile!!!

I love this man...Glynn Dyess!

Sarah, Nicci, and Tammy

The Passing of a Great Man

2008-12-30T05:04:00.000-08:00

My grandfather (actually my step grandfather, but I never looked at him that way) Dr. Van A. Phillips passed away this morning around 2:30 a.m. Both of his daughters, my grandmother, and my mother were there with him. Please pray for all of our families as we mourn the loss of this great man. Dr. Phillips, or "doc" as we called him, was such a wonderful man and loved by many. He was so good to my grandmother. They actually went to high school together...both married other people...had long marriages...then both spouses died around the same time...a few years later they married. They actually married December 29, 1998 so yesterday was their 10th anniversary. They were great for each other as they were companions for one another. He was a great caregiver to my grandmother and I will always be thankful to him for this reason. Please pray a special prayer for my grandmother as this is the second husband she has lost. I can't imagine the pain she is feeling right now.

Much Love,
Bethany

Prayers Needed

2008-12-29T21:43:00.001-08:00

I come to you all tonight asking for prayers for my grandfather. This morning he was not feeling well so my grandmother took him to the ER. They learned that he was having congestive heart failure. They were going to need to admit him and remove fluid from the heart but things looked okay. Then while still in the ER he coded...they got him back but things are not looking good. They have now learned that he has an infection in the blood...his kidneys are also not functioning. Please pray for his two daughters and my grandmother. This is my grandmother's second husband...they married ten years ago after both of their spouses passed away. Also please pray for my mother as she is having to be with my grandmother during this hard time. My grandmother has the beginning of Alzheimer's disease and things can get her confused very quickly. I was with them for awhile tonight but seeing him on the respirator brought back fresh memories of precious Mary Glenn so I decided to come home and have some time to myself (Shea is off hunting). So now Marley and I will try to get some rest and pray for God's will on my grandfather.

Much Love,
Bethany

Christmas In Heaven

2008-12-28T14:57:00.000-08:00

A friend sent this poem to me in the mail during the holidays and I had planned on sharing it with you guys on Christmas Day but we were on a schedule and pooped by the end of the night and I forgot to do so. Shea and I had a great Christmas considering everything that we have been going through these past few months. We had some moments of sadness...moments of crying VERY hard, and LOTS of moments with laughter. We were surrounded by friends and family which always brings joy to my heart.

Christmas In Heaven

I see the countless CHRISTMAS TREES around the world below
with tiny lights like HEAVEN'S STARS reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so SPECTACULAR please wipe away that tear
for I am spending CHRISTMAS WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I hear the many CHRISTMAS SONGS that people hold so dear
but the SOUND OF MUSIC can't compare with the CHRISTMAS CHOIR up here.

I have no words to tell you of the JOY their voices bring
for it is beyond description to HEAR THE ANGELS SING.

I know HOW MUCH YOU MISS ME, I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending CHRISTMAS WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I can't tell you of the SPLENDOR or the PEACE here in this place
Can you just imagine CHRISTMAS WITH OUR SAVIOR face to face

I'll ask him to LIFT YOUR SPIRIT as I tell him of your love
so then PRAY FOR ONE ANOTHER as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your HEARTS BE JOYFUL and let your SPIRIT SING
for I am spending CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN and I'm walking WITH THE KING.

I will be posting pictures from Nashville and Christmas soon, but now I must get started balancing our checkbook...paying bills...and writing thank you notes!

Love,
Bethany

I'M BACK!!!

2008-12-15T11:36:00.001-08:00

First I must apologize for not posting any blogs lately. I didn't realize how long it had been. We have been very busy and honestly I have been enjoying taking a break from the blog world...but I'M BACK!

Shea and I had a GREAT Thanksgiving. We spent the day at my Aunt Julie's house in Carnes, MS...this is a family tradition that we have been doing as long as I can remember. My Aunt Julie is such a wonderful person and a true friend in Christ. Her faith is amazing and I love spending time with her. The night was spent with Shea's family. Shea broke out the guitar and played his #1 fan (his mother) a few songs. Shea has never missed an opportunity to play for a crowd. Usually Shea leaves Thanksgiving day to spend the rest of the holiday with my dad at the duck camp, but this year he spent it with me and for that I was SUPER thankful.

Since Thanksgiving we have stayed on the go with Christmas parties and hanging out with each other. Shea did take a quick trip to the duck camp Friday and Saturday...the weather was suppose to be perfect for deer and ducks...but for some reason he didn't come with a deer or many ducks. I told him yesterday that I think he uses that excuse to get away from me!!! My hormones are still out of whack. If you don't beleive me then ask Shea about my break down last Wednesday night.

This past Thursday South Mississippi was covered in snow. The news and my neighbors estimated that we got almost 5 inches of snow in Sumrall. It was wild. It started snowing at 5:45 in the morning and didn't stop til 1:00 that afternoon. It was the hardest snow that I have ever seen and absolutely gourgeous.

Overall I am doing good. I still have my moments. I really miss Mary Glenn and the holidays are especially hard. I had planned out a totally different holiday...one that may include a baby or one with me about to pop. Neither of these plans are reality. The reality is that I will celebrate my Christmas with a baby that has gone to be with our Lord. I know she is up there singing away and watching how her daddy absolutely loves the holidays and how her mom stresses out over the small things when it comes to the holidays. I will say that this Christmas is totally different...but in a good way. I have never looked at Christmas in the way I do now. Christmas has a new meaning to me and it always will because of my precious baby girl. Once again...thank you Mary Glenn. I know you are up there singing Christmas carols with your pops, mammaw & grandaddy, and pawpaw...sing my favorite song for me...O Holy Night...I know you sound a lot better than your mommie. I love you!!!

Shea and I leave Wednesday for a much needed get away...by ourselves...to Nashville! We are very excited and can't wait to get there and hang out. I will be posting pictures when we return. For now I have posted some pictures of our Christmas decorations and some from the snow day.

More pictures...

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!
Bethany

Memorials

2008-11-20T18:39:00.001-08:00

Many people have asked us about how and where to submit a Memorial in Mary Glenn's name. Shea and I thought a lot about this topic and we knew that somehow we wanted it to benefit the NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) at Forrest General Hospital. The doctors and nurses were absolutely amazing and we could not have asked for better care. If you are interested in making a donation in memory of Mary Glenn the information is below. I would like to thank you in advance for your contribution.

Forrest General Healthcare Foundation
Neonatal Unit
P.O. Box 19010
Hattiesburg, MS 39404
(601) 288-4396
In Memory of: Mary Glenn McNease

With Love,
Shea and Bethany

Diagnosis Received

2008-11-18T19:55:00.001-08:00

Saturday we learned that the initial tests indicated that Mary Glenn had Trisomy 18. The original test was only for the 18th chromosome. Dr. Henderson called us tonight and after more testing Mary Glenn has triploid syndrome. What does this mean? In a normal pregnancy the baby carries 46 chromosomes...23 from the mother and 23 from the father. Mary Glenn had three of every chromosome...a total of 69 chromosomes. Shea and I have done some research tonight and this is very rare. More amazing is the fact that most babies die in an early miscarriage. Very rarely do babies make it to full term and even more rare do they live but a few hours. There are only a few cases where the baby has made it full term and nothing has been reported that a baby with the Triploid Syndrome live over 5 months. God is revealing to us each day how blessed we were to have almost a complete day with our baby girl. We do not know the chances of recurrences but we will meet with doctors and find out what we can expect. Thanks again for your continued support and prayers.

With Love,
Shea and Bethany

A Blessing

2008-11-18T15:23:00.001-08:00

I have thought several times how I would post my first blog since the birth and passing of our precious baby girl, Mary Glenn McNease. I think Shea's post Sunday was absolutely wonderful and beautiful. I am married to such an amazing man. God chose Shea to be my partner in my life and for this I am so very thankful. I can't imagine going through this with someone other than Shea. God planned our life out together long before we met and he planned us to be the parents of Mary Glenn...God blessed us with an angel. Of course we will grieve only because we are human, but we will also rejoice in the fact that Mary Glenn is home with our Heavenly Father.

When I went to the doctor Thursday and learned that our child would be born that night I prayed so hard that God's will be done. We didn't know what we were looking at but I did know doctors were worried about the outcome. Mary Glenn was born at 5:05 p.m. on November 13, 2008...weighing in at 1 lb. 5 ozs. and 11 1/2" long. She came out whimpering and crying some. Dr. Henderson and his team did a great job in caring for her small body. After surgery Dr. Henderson explained she may have some heart problems and be a Trisonomy 18 (T18) baby due to certain markers on her little body. At first the heart problem scared us more than the T18 mainly because this meant our baby would have to go to Jackson for treatment and Shea and I would be broken apart. When they first wheeled me to the NICU to see Mary Glenn...Dr. Henderson told us her heart was fine and no need in Jackson...a prayer answered. I got to touch her this night...tell her that I loved her...and take sweet pictures of her.

Friday morning we (mom, Shea, and I) got to spend some time with her again...she was under the light with her sunglasses on...just laying there. We were able to "hold" her for a tiny bit. "Holding" her is not actually picking her up but putting our hands around her small body. I must say that when Shea did this her stats went up...she was a daddy's girl!!! Then around 1:45 Friday afternoon Dr. Henderson came to give us the news that I believe Shea knew may have been coming. Dr. Henderson let us know that we were losing her and we needed to get down to the NICU immediately. Mary Glenn's lungs were giving out and we knew it was time for her to go home. Because Mary Glenn's heart was strong we had 45 unbelievable moments with her that I will always remember. We got to hold her and love on her...I mean actually hold her...free from tubes and wires!!! I will always remember her brown eyes staring back at me just looking at her mother...what a blessing. I was able to tell her how much I loved her, but most importantly I got to tell Mary Glenn...THANK YOU! This was very important to me. Mary Glenn was a gift from God. She has changed me in so many ways. She has made me a better person...she has brought me closer to our Lord...she has made my relationship with her daddy stronger...she has brought others closer to the Lord...and has strengthen our prayer life! As Shea posted in his blog...Mary Glenn accomplished more on this earth in those few hours then I have in my entire life. She was on a mission...she accomplished her mission...and went home. Shea and I were not suppose to have one minute with our angel and we had a day with her...how awesome! While she took her last breaths we all sang Jesus Loves Me to her and then at 2:36 p.m. on November 14, 2008 she went to be with our Lord and Savior.

We did find out that the intital test did show that Mary Glenn had T18. We will learn more in the weeks to come on the blood results. T18 is a fatal diagnosis. Some babies will live for up to a year, but the percentages are much higher for the baby to only live for a few days. We did learn afterwards that because T18 is fatal that we would have had to make very hard decisions on our baby's life. Mary Glenn knew how hard this would be on her mother and daddy so she went on her own time. AMEN!

Yesterday, Monday, November 17, 2008 we buried our baby girl. This was not in my plan but in God's plan. Words can not express the emotions that entered my body yesterday. I will say that when we were planning out the arrangements we thought at one time to make the service private. After talking Shea and I decided that we had so many people that helped us through this journey and it felt right to allow others to celebrate her life. Shea and I were amazed and so grateful for everyone that came to the service yesterday. It was such a testimony of Mary Glenn. She may not have been that big in size but her impact was so big. AMEN! We prayed over and over that we use Mary Glenn to glorify His name. We will continue to do so. We will continue to pray for God's will to be done.

In closing this post we do not know what the future holds for us, but we do know that we must move on and face the challenges ahead on a day to day basis. I thank everyone for their support on our journey. I ask for continued prayers for Shea and I and our future. We are overwhelmed by the support of our friends and family! We will never be able to thank you enough!

In His Words,
Bethany

Mission Accomplished

2008-11-16T13:28:00.000-08:00

We're not supposed to bury our children. This is a psychological truth and an unnatural act. God is God! This is basic theology and a comforting fact. I made funeral arrangements for my daughter today. A crippling experience to say the least, but it allowed for a great deal of uninterrupted reflection, which led to unexplainable peace.

Mary Glenn McNease was special. I don't say that because she was my daughter, I say it because it is true. In 32 weeks and 5 days of gestation, and 21 hours, 35 minutes of life, she accomplished more than her daddy has in 35 wasted years. All parents want their children to be better than they are. Mary Glenn was better than me. She changed my life forever and made me a better man, a stronger christian and a more faithful worshipper. I will weep for many days to come because I am left in a fallen creation to strive for the unattainable. She has acheived perfection. There are no ventilators, no I.V.'s and no chromosomal abnormalities where she is today. Mary Glenn has attained what her daddy hopes for one day and that is to hear our sweet Saviour say, "Well done my good and faithful servant."

I always hesitated to say that the change in diagnosis was a miracle. But I now boldly say that the whole concept was a miracle. Mary Glenn died because of sin. Original sin that plagues us all until we get our undeserved reward. God loves us all. He showed that when He sent His Son to die for us. He has given me more than I deserve, and has seen fit to take my daughter. If that advances His kingdom on Earth, then "It Is Well With My Soul." If you know me, and weep for my daughter, and don't know Jesus Christ as your personal Saviour, I hope you will seek Him. Otherwise, my daughter died in vain. She is resting in His arms and I long to see them both. She accomplished exactly what she was sent to do, no more, no less. The Lord God Jehovah be praised for this experience. I hope when everyone who reads this meets their fate, they can say, "Mission Accomplished."

Bethany and I want to thank everyone for their support. We will continue this blog and hope that all will continue to follow it.

In His Grace,
Shea Mc

Going Home

2008-11-14T16:19:00.000-08:00

Mary Glenn McNease was called home to be with the Lord at 2:36 pm today.
Bethany, Shea and their families give thanks to God for the gift and blessing of Mary Glenn and they are grateful for the time they were able to spend with her.
Bethany and Shea also want to express their thanks and gratitude for all of your amazing support. Your many thoughts and prayers have been deeply felt throughout their journey. Please remain prayerful and continue to lift them up as they move forward.

They rest in the fact that...
God is good!
God is in control!
God's will, be done!

Lorin Singletary Jones

Having A Baby, Delivering Today

2008-11-13T13:37:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone, I am a friend of Bethany and Shea's and they have asked me to create this post. Bethany and Shea will have their baby, Mary Glenn, Today. After Bethany's appointment, doctors determined that Mary Glenn had not grown and that it would be best for her to enter this world today. Bethany will have a C-section this evening. Please continue to remember them and their families. They have asked for and will greatly appreciate your prayers at this time.
As Bethany and Shea have often reminded us,
God is good!
God is in control!
God's will be done!

Lorin

A Big Day

2008-11-13T04:41:00.000-08:00

I feel like every week I say we have a Big Day...but today seems different. I also always feel like I am begging for prayers...but today I REALLY need them. I am a nervous wreck about our appointment this afternoon. I just pray that Mary Glenn has grown but on the other hand I pray for God's will!

For those of you that read the blog often and remember the blog named "I Saw God Today" that I posted a few weeks ago about a song by George Strait won Single of the Year award last night on the CMAs. I thought that was great!!!

Psalm 139:9-10

If I live at the eastern horizon or settle at the western limits, even there Your hand will lead me; Your right hand will hold on to me.

It is very comforting to me to know that God is with me every step of the way with my journey. I don't think I have stopped asking God for comfort and peace today. Thanks in advance for your prayers. We love you all!

In His Words,
Bethany

Emotions

2008-11-12T06:24:00.000-08:00

Before I get into details of why I titled this post "Emotions" I want to first tell you all about the past few days. Wednesday night after work my mother, sister, aunt, cousin, and a friend headed to Jackson for Missletoe Market Place. Wednesday night we ate dinner at Ely's in Ridgeland...FABULOUS!!! My friend's husband opened the restaurant in February and this was my first time to try it out...I was to say the least very pleased! Thursday was a day filled with shopping! We started the day off at Missletoe and once general admission came in at 11:00 we were walking out the door. I DO NOT do crowds. I will say this...I think I sat on every bench there!!! Mom and I went to Sweet Dreams to buy a couple of outfits for Mary Glenn and then the rest of the day was spent at Renaissance. GREAT SHOPPING!

Friday morning I headed to Mobile with friends for Katie and Richard's wedding weekend. It was such a great time...See pictures below. Katie was gorgeous as usual!!

Well it has been a month since we last saw Mary Glenn on the ultrasound...it has felt longer than that though. My patience has been tested lately. This has been the longest interval of time of actually having an ultrasound but both doctors felt like it was best to give it time for her to grow. I don't know how many times I have worried about her growth...way too many times to count. When it does cross my mind I have to ask God to handle that worry...I press on for an hour...minute...or second...begin to worry again...and then once again turn it over to God. God is much better at handling my worries and fears than I...so it just seems like the logical thing to do. I must understand that if she hasn't grown that this is God's plan. He has a purpose. We go tomorrow for the ultrasound at 1:00...our NST is not until 3:00 and then doctor's visit after the NST. If Mary Glenn has not grown and/or we do not pass the NST then we will most likely head to the delivery room. If she has grown and we do pass the NST (PRAY PRAY PRAY) then we will probably set the date for her delivery...most likely the week of Thanksgiving. For some reason it just seems right for her to come at Thanksgiving...what a blessing she will be to our family.

Shea and I ask for prayers as tomorrow's day at the doctor's office approaches. I am nervous, anxious, worried, excited, etc.... Please pray that God's will be done. We must use this journey to glorify His name and praise Him. I also pray that God prepare Shea, our family and friends, and myself for the news we will receive tomorrow. Only the good Lord knows what is to happen, but Shea and I need to be prepared for whatever...hopefully and prayerfully GREAT news. Of course we pray for GROWTH and a good NST and that Mary Glenn is healthly. Our God works miracles every day! Thank you all for your continued support. We are very thankful to have you all along with us on our journey. God Bless!

1 Peter: 5:6-7 KJV
Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

Ephesians 3:12 TLB
Now we can come fearlessly right into God's presence, assured of his glad welcome when we come with Christ and trust in Him.

In His Words,
Bethany

Introducing...

2008-11-11T10:43:00.001-08:00

I have not posted in a few days but I wanted to post a couple of pictures today of some new friends...I have had ALOT going since last Thursday but I will post more about those events later today or tomorrow. This post is about NEW BABIES!!!

Below is William Hatten Jussley...son of Rachel and Josh Jussley. I got to visit with Rachel and Hatten last night and he is absolutely beautiful! Congratulations!!! You can barely see Hatten but maybe you can catch a glimpse of him under his blanket...

Saturday morning two precious baby boys entered this world at 32 weeks...Cannon Corey Loftin and Gunner Cody Loftin...sons of Corey and Jessica Loftin. Cannon weighed 3 lbs 3 ozs and Gunner weighed 3 lbs. 6 ozs. Both boys are doing GREAT!!! Of course they will be in the NICU for many weeks, but both boys are breathing on their own and Jessica actually got to hold Cannon for the first time last night. I ask that you say a special prayer for Jessica and Corey as they will be leaving the hospital today and Jessica is overwhelmed with emotions of having to leave the boys! Here are a couple of pictures...ENJOY!

Psalm 139: 13-14

2008-11-05T13:23:00.000-08:00

Interesting...

After having such an overwhelming morning and worrying constantly about Mary Glenn and her growth...I got to work and had a GREAT verse of the day on my desk, so I thought I would share. I hope you all are having a good Wednesday.

Psalm 139: 13-14
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

PRAISE GOD!!!

Bethany

We passed another NST...

2008-11-05T10:41:00.000-08:00

Well we passed our fifth NST. Way to go Mary Glenn! Mary Glenn was a little sleepy this morning..we usually do our NSTs in the afternoon so our sweet tech Cindy had to "zap" her a couple of times to get that heart rate going. For all of you not familiar with the "zap" term it means that the tech will put a little vibration on your belly to stimulate the baby's heartbeat. Dr. Benton said the NST looked good and gave me the go ahead on Missletoe and Katie's wedding!!! I am very excited.

Even though we got good news today I am a little overwhelmed. In saying this I think Dr. Benton could feel that I am a little tired today. I am emotionally drained. I am nervous, scared, and worried already about our doctor visit next Thursday. Next Thursday we will have a growth ultrasound to see how much Mary Glenn has grown in four weeks. Please begin to pray now!!! I just hope she has grown...last time we checked she was 1 pound 3 ozs. We found out today that we will most likely deliver in 3 weeks!!! After Thursday's appointment both doctors (Benton and Perry) will discuss, but Dr. Benton feels very confident that we will take Mary Glenn at 34 weeks. I am 31 weeks 5 days today. Now you may know why I am concerned about her weight!!! GROW MARY GLENN GROW!!!!

Well I am going to go get some work done today as we will leave in a few hours for Jackson. I am going to try to relax and enjoy every moment of my time with friends and family over the next few days. I keep reminding my hard headed self today that GOD IS IN CONTROL!!! I ask for certain prayer requests today: God's will be done, GROWTH for Mary Glenn, for God to prepare Shea and I for the future, peace, strength, guidance, and PATIENCE!!! Thanks so much for joining us on this journey. We couldn't make it without the prayers and support of each of you!!! This morning a sweet friend of mine sent me a verse...it is actually one of my favorites and I will leave you all today with the verse.

Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go

In His Words,
Bethany

Change in Plans...

2008-11-04T06:15:00.000-08:00

To All:

My doctor visit this week was originally scheduled for Friday at 8:00. Yesterday Dr. Benton's office called and had to reschedule me to Wednesday (tomorrow) at 8:20. Please say a prayer for us at this time. If I pass the NST I will leave for Missletoe MarketPlace in Jackson for a fun day of shopping Thursday and then off to my friend's wedding festivities in Mobile on Friday. I hope you all have a great day and don't forget to vote!

Psalm 34:4 - I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all of my fears.

Have a blessed day!
Bethany

A Good Day

2008-10-30T18:40:00.000-07:00

Today was a good day. We started the morning off in Jackson with Dr. Shores. She is absolutely wonderful and it was a joy to get to meet her today. She did an ultrasound of the heart only. We did get to see Mary Glenn but it was only for a short second and no measurements were taken. The diagnosis of her heart was really good. The fluid is still there but it is so small...just a smidgen as the doctor described it to us. It is located on the lower anterior lobe and does not surround her heart. The number one cause of fluid around the heart is: structural damage, number two: heart arrhythmia, and number three: a viral infection to me and the baby. Mary Glenn's heart structurally, functionally, and rhythmically all look normal to Dr. Shores. PRAISE GOD!!! She believes that the same thing that caused the kidneys to shut down probably caused this fluid. She told us today she did not see any reason for us to deliver in Jackson. She felt confident in the NICU at Forrest General Hospital. Another praise to God. What now? She did order an echocardiogram at birth. If the fluid is still there then we will follow up with her in Jackson after birth...if not we are free from Jackson. We will continue the NSTs each week.

After Jackson we traveled back to Hattiesburg for our fourth NST test. Once again we passed. PRAISE GOD!!! Dr. Benton was very pleased with the results and we press on for yet another week. Dr. Benton did tell us today that himself and Dr. Perry have discussed taking this baby at 34 weeks...which is three weeks from Saturday. Dr. Benton is going to talk with Dr. Perry again in the next week or so and discuss further. We were hoping for closer to 36 weeks but I am putting this ultimately in the hands of God and also our doctors. Some of you may (including my family) ask why so soon. Well with a baby that is growth restricted like Mary Glenn the chance of complications in the womb increases between 34 and 36 weeks. This was definitely an eye opener for Shea and I but we must trust our God.

While in Jackson with Dr. Shores we were leaving the office and having small talk. Somehow the topic came up that I was over 30 week gestation and how that was a positive sign. I explained to Dr. Shores that I was 30 (almost 31) weeks but the baby was measuring much smaller than me. She then explained something to us that I have never grasped. The baby may measure 24 to 26 weeks, but her maturity is the same as my gestation. Which means that her organs are 30 weeks...her skin...her eyes...etc... This was positive news to me because I was thinking her lungs were only at 24 weeks. If we can make it a few more weeks we will have a better chance with better lung development. PRAY!!!

Every time we have a doctor visit we get asked the same thing...how big is she now??? We are not measuring at this time. Two weeks ago (our last growth ultrasound) she had only gained 1 oz which was very discouraging to myself. We talked with Dr. Benton and Dr. Perry and they both explained that we must give her time to grow...SHE IS GOING TO BE SMALL!!! When we have ultrasounds every week or so it starts giving us false positives and negatives. We will have a growth ultrasound on November 13th! PRAY!!! Our next doctor's visit is next Friday, November 7th at 8:00 for a NST and visit. This is actually a very important NST for myself. One of my best friends is getting married next weekend and I want so bad to be there for her on this big day. The good Lord willing I will have my NST that morning then hopefully head to Mobile for wedding festivities. Please PRAY for a good NST!

I will post a picture tomorrow but this afternoon Shea and I went to visit friends Rachel and Josh Jussley and their new baby boy Hatten. He is so beautiful. Congratulations!!!

God must be given the glory today. He is so awesome and wonderful!!! I have given him lots of praise today...but that is still not enough. Please continue to lift us up in your prayers...IT IS WORKING!!! We love you all!

In His Words,
Bethany

Finally Pictures...

2008-10-29T13:14:00.000-07:00

So today I finally got the time to post some pictures on our blog. I found it fitting that the first pictures posted would be Miss Mary Glenn McNease. These pictures are a few weeks old now so I pray that she has gotten bigger. We will be leaving early in the morning for Jackson to visit with Dr. Shores about Mary Glenn's heart. If everything is okay there we will come back to Hattiesburg for our fourth NST. WOW...Tomorrow is a BIG Day!!! Please pray for us. We pray for God's will to be done, for encouraging words at both doctor visits, and for God to prepare our family for the outcome.

I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. Ephesians 1: 18-19 NIV

In His Words,
Bethany

I Saw God Today

2008-10-25T06:31:00.000-07:00

Good morning to you all. I apologize for not posting anything yesterday but I went non stop after leaving the doctor and when I got home I crashed. As you may know since I am typing this post the day after my doctor's visit we passed the NST for the 3rd time!!! Dr. Benton was very pleased with the results. So now we press on another week and wait for Thursday, Oct. 30. Please pray for us on that day as it is a big day. We will have a visit with Dr. Shores (cardiologoist) in Jackson at 9:00 and then we will have an NST that afternoon at 3:00 with Dr. Benton in Hattiesburg. Dr. Benton will not be in clinic on Friday therefore our NST is on Thursday.

Now for an explanation of the title of this post. The day Shea and I found out we were pregnant we were on the way to the doctor's office...nervous, excited, and scared. Well George Strait had a new song out at that time (April 2008) titled "I Saw God Today". I had heard it a few times but that morning I really noticed the words and cried because it was such a sweet song. Then we got out of the doctor's office and confirmed the pregnancy...the song that came on..."I Saw God Today". WOW! This instantly became my new favorite song...and for some reason when I listen to the words it lets me remember how awesome our God is and that He is so big...it calms my nerves. Then on the way to our first ultrasound the song came on again...and two weeks later for another ultrasound...it played again right by the doctor's office. It was a sign to me that God was allowing me to hear this song to calm me down before these appointments. You must remember that the song was new at that time and played alot on the radio. Since August I have heard it many more times but mainly because I have chose to play it on my computer at work. Yesterday, after having such a "down" week, I heard it on the radio on my way to the doctor's offfice. I immediately sent Shea a text to quiz him on what song I had just heard...we haven't discussed this song in a long time...and his first answer was..."I Saw God Today"!!! This may not mean much to you guys but I think it is such an awesome way to show us that God is with us at all times and he knows exactly what we need and when we need it! I posted the lyrics below for those of you that may have not heard the song before.

I just walked down the street to the coffee shop
had to take a break
I'd been by her side for eighteen hours straight
I saw a flower growing in the middle of the sidewalk
pushing up through the concrete
like it was planted right there for me to see
the flashin' lights, the honkin' horns
all seemed to fade away
in the shadow of that hospital at 5:08
I saw God today

Chorus:
I've been to church
I've read the book
I know He's here, but I don't look
near as often as I should
Yeah, I know I should
His fingerprints are everywhere
I'd just slow down to stop and stare
opened my eyes and man I swear
I saw God today

I saw a couple walking by they were holding hands
Man, she had that glow
yeah I couldn't help but notice she was starting to show
I stood there for a minute takin' in the sky
lost in that sunset
a splash of amber melted in the shades of red

Chorus

I got my face pressed up against the nursery glass
She's sleeping like a rock
My name on her wrist wearing tiny pink socks
She's got my nose, she's got her mama's eyes
My brand new baby girl
She's a miracle
I saw God today

I can not finish this post without thanking you all once again for the prayers and support. It is so comforting to Shea, our families, and myself to know that we have such wonderful friends. We are still on a long journey...with twists and curves...but with God we are going to make it. Dr. Benton, Shea, and I talked for a long time yesterday...we can't predict the outcome of this pregnancy...but we can turn our eyes upon Jesus...trust Him...have faith in Him...and take one day at time and follow the path He has paved for us. We love you all!

In His Words,
Bethany

Dr. Appt

2008-10-24T04:52:00.000-07:00

The daily verse for today from Beth Moore's book was:

Let us hold onto the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful (Hebrews 10:23)

Hold onto the hope WITHOUT wavering!!!! We go for our weekly NST today at 1:00 then a doctor's appointment afterwards with Dr. Benton. We ask for prayers! I will update afterwards...Lord willing!

In His Words,
Bethany

Tired...

2008-10-21T09:13:00.000-07:00

Well it is Tuesday and I just realized that I haven't posted anything from our weekend get away to the beach. The beach was very nice even though we didn't get to see much of it because it was such a quick trip. We stayed at Seaside and all of the wedding activities were there. Chelsea was a beautiful bride and everything went off without a hitch. I did get some shopping in Saturday but believe it or not I did not buy one thing for myself!!! There's a first time for everything I guess. I really enjoyed getting away and spending time with my family. We laughed a lot and enjoyed sharing memories from the past with the Dossett family.

The beach was a break from reality for me for a few days...which I must say I really needed. On the way home though I couldn't help but think about what all is going on in my life right now. I am such a planner and to be honest so far my life hasn't been that far off track...until now! As a little girl you dream of your wedding day...your husband...and then plan out your family. It all seems so easy to plan out. Shea and I knew we always wanted children...preferably two...and we knew we wanted to be married for a few years too before children came into our life. Well I must say that I was not prepared for children the way God wanted me to be planned. God has known this plan for a long time...he didn't just wake up on August 20th and say...I am going to get Bethany and Shea off their plan today. He has been planning this for a very long time. Was I ready? NO! Am I ashamed that I was not ready? YES! In saying this I have strengthen my relationship with God. I have prayed (even before August 20th) that I may come to know our Lord in a more deeper/spiritual way. Mary Glenn has allowed this to happen and I am very thankful.

After our doctor's visit on Friday I was very discouraged and in some ways I still feel the same way. The last two days have been extremely hard for me. I can't explain why though. I am tired. I feel so helpless. I have no idea what is going on inside me with Mary Glenn...fear of the unknown. I come today asking for prayers! I have the most wonderful support group that anyone could have...my dear husband has been wonderful. My parents and sister are so encouraging, but still sometimes you feel lost and all by yourself. Only God knows what our future holds and until that is revealed to us I pray that God continue to place the unshakable peace on me so that I can get through each day. I ask for strength and comfort during these trying days. Of course I pray for Mary Glenn and that she may grow grow grow! She is already a child of God. She has already given me so much...more than I could ever ask for from her...a more definite relationship with our Lord and Savior. I pray that Shea and I continue to use Mary Glenn to glorify Him and that His will be done. And last but certainly not least I pray for preparation of our hearts.

I will go back to Dr. Benton on Friday at 1:00 for another NST and doctor's visit. An ultrasound is not scheduled but I am not sure if Dr. Benton will want to check her growth rate or not. IF we don't pass this NST will we most probably go to the delivery room. Please pray for our family during this time on Friday. Thanks for everything.

In His Words,
Bethany

PLEASE PRAY FOR GROWTH!

2008-10-17T09:51:00.001-07:00

This post will be short and to the point...Dr. Benton gave us the go ahead on our beach trip. The NST went well today and Dr. Benton said that part looked good. We had an ultrasound today too. It doesn't seem that Mary Glenn has grown much. She has only gained an ounce and we have lost a week of growth. Of course I am VERY disappointed and discouraged but I must turn my eyes upon Jesus and ask for his help! Once finding out the news Dr. Benton called Dr. Perry in Jackson. Dr. Perry said to keep pressing on as is and do not change anything. Dr. Benton let Shea and I know that both doctors (Perry and Benton) did not feel that I would pass the first NST test and I would be having a c-section that day. Well I have passed two now so that is optimistic. Dr. Perry and Benton explained to us that right now she has grown some and her NST is good, so right now she is better off in the womb because of her lungs. Most importantly right now is her growth!!!! Krystale did see the sliver of fluid around her heart so it is still there but we will wait on Dr. Shores visit to get that explanation.

I ask now for everyone to keep praying. It is so important and I know I have some powerful prayer warriors out there! We pray for her growth, Dr. Shores upcoming heart visit, and God's will. Please pray for myself too. I am struggling but by God's grace staying strong. I left the doctor today very discouraged and tired. We will go back to Dr. Benton's office next Friday for another NST. Until the I am sure I will post again...but keep praying for MARY GLENN TO GROW!!!

In His Words,
Bethany

Rescheduled...

2008-10-15T16:04:00.000-07:00

I want to let you all know that our appointment with Dr. Shores has been cancelled tomorrow. I got a call today at 4:45 from her office. She has a virus and the appointment has been rescheduled for October 30th at 9:00 a.m. Please pray for me as you may know that I am very disappointed and upset about the change in days. I am an emotional wreck already and I was so looking forward to finding out about Mary Glenn's heart and the severity of the issue. So now we WAIT again...for two more weeks!!! Also, once again I must turn everything over to God and allow Him to come to me and give me comfort and peace. HE IS IN CONTROL!!! We will be going to see Dr. Benton for an NST Friday morning and the dreaded 3 hour glucose test. Please pray that everything goes well Friday and that our family can leave for the beach and enjoy a much needed weekend away. Also pray for Dr. Shores that she will be feeling better soon.

In His Words,
Bethany

Wait, Watch, and See

2008-10-15T12:04:00.000-07:00

Last Monday Dr. Perry said that we would now have to Wait, Watch, and See. I must tell you that is MUCH easier said than done. I am struggling. This morning I prayed to God to give me peace about the unknown. Me not knowing what is going on with Mary Glenn is VERY hard. She is constantly on my mind. Today has been overwhelming hard. I am so anxious and nervous about our viist tomorrow in Jackson with the cardiologosit. At my office I have a Promises & Blessings book on my desk that gives me a scripture verse for each day of the week. The past three days the Lord has been talking to me through these verses.

Monday (10/13)
Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. (Psalm 27:14 KJV)

Tuesday (10/14)
The human mind plans the way, but the Lord directs the steps. (Proverbs 16:9 NRSV)

Wednesday (10/15) One of my favorites!!!
I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. (Psalm 34:4-5 NIV)

How awesome are these verses??? I take comfort by reading and then re-reading these verses. Please continue to pray for us, especially tomorrow at 9:00. We continue to ask for you to pray for God's will to be done and for God to prepare us for the outcome. Of course, we ask for encouraging words at our doctor's visit tomorrow. On a special note, I ask for peace and comforting. It is very hard for me to stay focused but I am trying. God is good and HE IS IN CONTROL!!!

In His Words,
Bethany

27 Weeks and 6 Days

2008-10-10T14:45:00.000-07:00

Today I am 27 weeks and 6 days for those that are keeping track. I had my first NST today and things went well. Mary Glenn's heartrate stayed consistent in the 150s which made Dr. Benton very happy. We got the stamp of approval for another week. My next NST will be next Friday morning along with my 3 hour glucose test!!! I am not sure if I will have an ultrasound Friday.

Keep praying for another positive visit to the doctor next Friday but also next Thursday when we go to see the cardiologoist for Mary Glenn's heart. If everything looks good to the doctors then we will be heading the beach for a wedding. I must say that this would be the third time that I have tried to go out of town...so I pray that we are in good enough health to make the trip!!!

I hope you all have a good weekend!

Bethany

Please Remember...

2008-10-10T09:44:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to remind everyone to say a special prayer for Shea, Mary Glenn, and I today at 1:00. I have my first NST (non stress test). They will be checking fetal assessments and making sure MG is not in distress. If so they could tell me to rest or if it is bad enough they could decide to deliver MG. I PRAY THIS IS NOT THE CASE!!!! This is just a routine visit and I will have this test each Friday.

Also...please say a special prayer for myself. I have been fighting a cold all week and would only take a Tylenol Sinus here and there. I am totally terrified to put anything in my body even if all the doctors say it is fine. Well this morning I woke up feeling HORRIBLE. I have started taking a Z-Pak but I pray I start feeling better soon.

I will post later today...the good Lord willing...

Here is the scripture from today:

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see...By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead. Hebrews 11:1,4

In His Words,
Bethany

Babies, Bucks and Ducks

2008-10-07T14:29:00.000-07:00

I have a different outlook on being a dad for the first time since August 20, 2008. I asked the doctor point blank yesterday what he thought about My, Bethany and Mary Glenn's future. Can we plan? Can we buy stuff? These are seemingly shallow questions, but we didn't know. And for Bethany, not knowing is torture. For me, I was tired of being hard on everyone around me. I want to be excited about being a dad, but not naive. So Dr. Perry did not hesitate when he told me that we can officially do what any expecting couple does. Buy stuff, be excited, and for the first time in a month and a half, let our guard down somewhat.

I love to hunt and fish. It is one of the worldly things that defines who I am. I have a very understanding wife, who also enjoys it, mainly because of her upbringing. See my father-in-law has become my main partner in crime in these endeavours. He is a great outdoorsman. I'm not joking, he needs his own TV show. He has several cronies that he goes with, but predominantly, I go with him. And the benefits have not only been in harvesting game, but harvesting lessons in life. He has taught me how to duck hunt, which is the hobby about which I am most passionate. He has also taught me the better points of deer hunting and speckled trout fishing. I had been a successful hunter and fisherman before meeting him, but he helped me refine my skills and be more selective. To enjoy the outdoors, the creation and not worship at the altar of slaughter. We have had some tremendous adventures, and I look forward to many more.

It appears, as of yesterday, that I am much closer to actually becoming a dad. Not only a dad, but a dad to a precious little girl. This whole process has been wild, but I got a feeling that being a male, helping to raise a female is going to be even wilder. I look very forward to it, and I've got some help. In addition to being a great outdoorsman, my father-in-law is also a great dad to two, beautiful, strong, intelligent, and refined young women. I hope, that I can pick up some of those things that made him tick when he was raising them. That way his granddaughter will hopefully have the same traits. My wife, and her sister, can both harvest game, prepare it, help run successful companies and know which fork goes on what side of the plate. Amazing!

I don't have to look far to know that I am blessed. I always want my daughter to know that she can do anything with assistance from God through Christ, that all things work together for good in God's will, Elvis is the King of Rock and Roll, Oprah is one of the four horsemen of the apocalypse, never use a feed call in more than 12 inches of water, and the 30-06 is the most versatile caliber of bullet for hunting whitetail deer. Not bad for starters. We'll work on the five points of Calvinism as she gets older.

In closing, I want to thank everyone for there prayers. They have worked and we always want to give the Lord God Jehovah all the glory. I am a feeble, depraved being, but He is perfect, just and righteous. Please continue to pray for me and my family both born and unborn. For the doctors, nurses and technicians as they give us information. And always pray that the Lord's will be done and that He receive ALL the glory. If you are reading this and you don't know Christ, I pray that you will seek His perfect peace. Life is better when you are worshiping the Creator and not the creation.

In His Grace,
Shea Mc

Encouraging Words

2008-10-06T17:42:00.000-07:00

Well we just got back from Jackson and its 7:45 p.m.!!! It has been a very long day and of course event filled. You know how last night I made the comment when it rains it pours? Well I now believe we faced a worse storm today...maybe one like Hurricane Katrina. Thankfully the doctor's appointment did not cause this storm to brew. First things first. Our doctor's appointment went well and we left encouraged. I will give details later on. But afterwards we all went to eat in Jackson. Well we were leaving the restaurant and we walk outside...guess what...NO CAR!!!! My mother's car was stolen from a very busy section of Jackson in broad daylight at 1:30 in the afternoon!!! Well praise God that Shea was able to make the trip today...but he had to go in his own car to stay away from me. This way we had another car with us in Jackson. He was not running fever this morning and felt like he was okay to make the trip. On a personal note I was VERY relieved for him to be going. It was comforting having him by my side along with my mom and dad. Well after filing police reports we all (mom, dad, shea and I) loaded up in his truck and traveled back to Hattiesburg one vehicle short. If Mary Glenn makes it into this world we will have one heck of a story to tell her!!!

Now for the doctor's visit. Dr. Perry was encouraged by what he saw today. The amount of amniotic fluid is normal. Mary Glenn moved the whole time which really made Dr. Perry excited. The calcium deposit on her heart is still there and there is also a "sliver" of fluid around the heart. Dr. Perry said that we definitely need to take a further look at it with a pediatric cardiologist and get another opinion. He has hopes that this is nothing major. Mary Glenn is still small but also still four weeks behind in development. She has continued on an uphill climb and has not flattened out...this is GOOD news. She now weighs 506 grams or 1 lb. 2 oz. All of her measurements are in proportion to each other. Her brain and spine look normal. Her blood flow to the brain and the cord look good. Dr. Perry does not see any major birth defects...PRAISE OUR GOD!!!! Dr. Perry's biggest concern is the baby is small which we have been aware of this since the middle of August. He feels if we can carry this baby to 34/36 weeks (my gestation) then we will take her then. The reason for this is because with a baby that has had a growth restriction like Mary Glenn the chances of a still birth increase around this time and we do not want to take any chances. As of today I am 27 weeks and 3 days. Now what? I will see Dr. Shores (pediatric cardiologist) in Jackson next Thursday for a further and more in depth look at her heart. This Friday (October 10th) I will begin fetal assessments (NST) with Dr. Benton. I will continue the NSTs until we deliver.

Our God is good! This journey has been long and overwhelming but at the same time it has bettered me as a person. We have wanted to use our baby to glorify our Lord and Savior and I pray that we continue to do so. When Mary Glenn makes it into this world I can thank her for strengthening my relationship with God. I don't think I have stopped talking to Him today!!! One thing that was left in my mom's car was my Bible and journal. I pray that whoever did such an evil thing today will look in the back seat and look into the Bible and read His words. My writings in my journal can not be replaced but maybe they will read those words too and see how awesome of a God we have!!! Maybe they will read about our baby girl and how she fights each day and how God has changed our lives with her.

Thank you so much for all the prayers. Prayer is very powerful and I ask now that you please don't stop! Our visit next Thursday is important and I pray that we will be encouraged once again by the doctor. I pray for God's will to be continued and that Shea and I will guard our hearts with the news that is to come. Please begin praying for our cardiologist Dr. Shores. Pray for Mary Glenn and that she will continue to fight and grow for us each day! As always pray for Dr. Benton especially right now as he has been under the weather today. Words can not describe how I have been overwhelmed by the support of our family and friends. One last thing...pray for the person who felt lead today to steal my mother's car. Obviously they are a lost soul and need help. I pray that they may find help on the back seat of mom's car!! Much love to all of you...

In His Word,
Bethany

Psalm 13: 4-5

2008-10-06T04:25:00.000-07:00

This morning after my two hours of sleep I got last night I opened up my Beth Moore devotion book and Psalm 13:4-5 was today's verse. I thought I would share it with you this morning.
My foes will rejoice because I am shaken. But I have trusted in Your faithful love; my heart will rejoice in Your deliverance.
Here are a couple more verses that have been going through my head most of the night:
Joshua 1:9 - Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.
Romans 8:28 - And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,who have been called according to his purpose.
Pslam 34:4 - I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.

As always thanks for your continued prayers and support. We will be leaving in a couple of hours for a journey to Jackson.

In His Word,
Bethany

PRAY! PRAY! PRAY!

2008-10-05T20:52:00.001-07:00

Well you know the saying..."When it rains it pours"? Well that is what is going on with me right now. Our weekend was really good. Saturday morning I got to spend some time with friends in Jackson. We hosted a wedding shower for my friend Katie. It was good for me to get out and visit with friends that I don't get to see very often. Saturday night we went to the USM game...it was a great game but USM did not come up on top. Maybe next week! Today was a GREAT Sunday. The guest pastor at church is one of my favorites...Dr. James Baird and he did an outstanding job with is message. After the service I got to spend time with a very special family member that I love dearly and don't get to see often. Even though you are a democrat Bev...I still love you! HAHA! Well after church Shea and I went home to relax...Shea had complained a little about not feeling well. Let's just say by 7:15 tonight I was dropping him off at Immediate Care with fever of 101 and tears in my eyes!!! This afternoon has just been emotional and with Shea sick it didn't help. I am so overcome with emotions for tomorrow that this just topped it off. We felt like Shea had a stomach bug just not sure. Well of course I couldn't go into Immediate Care because the last thing I need is to get myself or Mary Glenn sick. Well we were right with the diagnosis and Shea has a stomach virus. Shea explained our situation to the doctor because I am thinking even the least little thing may effect Mary Glenn a lot worse than it would a normal unborn baby. The doctor did not feel like the baby would be effected but informed Shea that he needed to keep his distance from me. So now I am writing this post at my parent's house while Shea is at our house. There is a high possibility that Shea will not be able to go with me to Jackson tomorrow and my heart is breaking. I can honestly say I broke tonight when I heard this news! We will see how he is doing tomorrow and make that decision then. Please pray for us...Shea feels so guilty that he is not here for me and I feel so sorry for him because there is nothing we can do...once again totally dependent on our God. Our God is GREAT and my faith is in Him! Even though both of our hearts are breaking...we turn our eyes on Him and believe in Him.

Tomorrow is such a big day. I can not even begin to tell you how many emotions I am going through and the thoughts that constantly stay on my mind. Please continue to pray for our 11:00 visit with Dr. Perry. As of now my mom will be going with me. I ask for you all to pray for God's will to be done, for God to prepare Shea, Mary Glenn, our family, and myself for the diagnosis, Dr. Perry and also for encouragement.

Last week Shea's sister sent me an e-mail titled "Your Birthday Bible Verse". To be honest most of the time I ignore forwards but for some reason I felt lead to check this out. So I went to a website...typed in my birthday and this is the verse that was used for my birthday...James 1:12..
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

I have thought of this verse often since I read it and I am clinging to it tonight with many others. Thanks to all of you for your prayers and I will post soon with results from tomorrow's visit...God willing.

In His Word,
Bethany

Still Going...

2008-10-03T10:41:00.000-07:00

We had a full day at the doctor this morning. I drank the lovely orange flavored glucose drink and to say the least it was not good. It taste like a flat Sunkist with about 6 scoops of sugar in it! Next up was the ultrasound. Mary Glenn is still fighting with a heartrate of 153 bpm!!! We checked this week for total amniotic fluid. Normally we check for pockets of fluid. Krystal likes to see atleast 5cm of fluid and we were over 9!!! There is something normal about our pregnancy!!! Krystal did show concern about some facial features that may be under developed. She pointed this out so we could ask Dr. Perry on Monday. Her spine and brain look good and all organs look ok. In saying this Dr. Perry's test is much more advanced and he will be able to see more details than Krystals...therefore our visit Monday is VERY CRITICAL! Then I went to see Dr. Benton for a check up. As he was walking in the door to see me I was walking out to get pricked for my sugar test and to get the results. I could tell in his eyes something was up. He looked at me and said..."You are going to kill me." Of course I said...why? Well he told me that he shouldn't have scheduled my glucose test during the week of my steroid shots becuase the steroids will increase my sugar. Well I went back anyway to get the results and the lab tech laughed and said yes that they would definitely not be normal and of course she was right! My hemoglobin was great...14.2 but my sugar was 177. Anything over 140 requires the lovely 3 hour test! Dr. Benton said I could do the hour test again but if I didn't pass I would have to do the 3 hour test so we went ahead and scheduled the 3 hour test in two weeks. I told Dr. Benton that I was going to make him drink it with me since this was all his fault!!! HAHA! The actual visit with Dr. Benton went well. We all want so bad to get excited but still very hesitant to do so just because this visit is so important and Mary Glenn has such a high chance of having numerous problems. He did comment that her organs look good and her statistics are all in range of each other...meaning one measurement isn't way out of whack to the others. We are still a month behind in develoment. We will begin NSTs (Non Stress Test) next Friday. I will have one each week. We will all know more after our visit Monday.

Please continue to pray for Monday. I am already losing sleep...mainly because I am so anxious for the visit to get here and the diagnosis to be given. I ask for the following specific prayers:

1 - God's will!!!! God knows what is best for the three of us and my faith is in Him. HE IS IN CONTROL!!!
2 - Dr. Perry and Dr. Benton - For their knowledge and wisdom to diagnosis Mary Glenn correctly
3 - For God to prepare Shea, Mary Glenn, myself, and our family and friends' hearts for whatever the outcome may be
4 - For encouraging words at our visit Monday!

Thanks to Dr. Benton today for his encouraging prayer that we had at our visit. You are the best!

In His Words,
Bethany

Heading to the Doctor...

2008-10-03T05:02:00.000-07:00

I am not sure if anyone really reads these post but if so please say a quick prayer for Shea, Mary Glenn, and I. We are headed to see Dr. Benton this morning. I will have my second steroid shot (the first one was NOT pleasant), glucose test, an ultrasound and then a doctor's visit. We will not check for growth but just heart rate and amount of amniotic fluid. We will be checking the growth on Monday in Jackson. Please pray that our Mary Glenn is still fighting for us and that she is okay. I didn't feel her make any significant moves yesterday so I always get a little worried...but at the same time I will not feel every move and she may just be lazy and wanting to rest!!! I will post an update soon!

Thanks in advance for the prayers!

In His Word,
Bethany

2008-09-28T18:52:00.000-07:00

Still no pictures and I apologize. We have had a busy weekend and I need Shea to help me out with which pictures to post and how. He absolutely hates our profile picture so that will change soon. I began to look for a recent picture of us two but couldn't find any...that's so sad! The picture in our profile is at my dear friend Ashley's wedding back in February!!! I also want to post ultrasound pictures but they have to be scanned in and that is way over my head.

I did some shopping yesterday. The plan was to buy for other people as I had several gifts to buy...but that never works. My pregnant co-workers and friends, Jessica and Tammy, went to the Henn's Nest to browse. Well we noticed one rack in the back that said maternity clothes 75% OFF!!! There is no way you can pass a deal like that up so we tried on just about everything in our sizes...hahaha! I got some really good deals so if there is anyone out there in need of some maternity clothes I highly suggest for you to stop by there. The Henn's Nest will no longer carry maternity clothes and she is getting rid of her stock. GOOD DEALS!!! Last night Shea and I brought back old times and played cards with Shea's mom and her friends. I say old times because when Shea and I were dating all of his mom's friends taught me how to play cards. Let me tell you when I say play cards these people mean business. I am by no means good...but we have a BLAST! When we lived in Bassfield we played cards EVERY weekend and Shea and I haven't played in a long time. We had a lot of fun...laughed A LOT...and unfortunately the ladies lost every game. Tommy Bass got a big kick out of it though so I am glad I could make him feel good!

This morning we went to Sunday school and church. I have spent the day at the house and actually about to turn in for night. It's 9:00 and getting close to my bedtime!

Before I say goodnight I must tell special friends congratulations on the birth of their son. During this journey Shea and I have talked with many people...some new faces and some old. We have been fortunate to have met Rachel and Chip Wall. Rachel and Chip are such sweet people and also followers of Jesus Christ. They have been so helpful since we found out the news of Mary Glenn. Shea and I will be forever grateful to them and we look forward to our friendship in the future! Rachel, Chip and their daughter Zaidee welcomed Samuel "Sam" Streeter Wall into their family last Wednesday. Congratulations! We hope to see you soon!

Keep Praying! We are so thankful for the love, support, and prayers from our friends and family.

In His Words,
Bethany

25 Weeks and 5 Days

2008-09-25T17:59:00.000-07:00

Well I couldn't go two weeks without seeing my dear friend Krystal so Shea and I went to visit her this afternoon. It just so happened that she wanted to do an ultrasound and see Mary Glenn!! As most of you know me by now I am exaggerating the truth a little. I do have a wonderful friend named Krystal but it was me that bothered her today for the ultrasound. I just couldn't stand not seeing Mary Glenn and Krystal!!! I have decided that Dr. Benton needs to let Krystal have October 6th off so she can travel to Jackson with Shea and I. Everything just seems better when Krystal is with me! I also found out today that Krystal checks the blog...so Shea and I told her she was a blog celebrity! Maybe one day she will let me take a picture of her so you guys can put a face with the name. Now for the details: Everything checked out good. Mary Glenn is right on track...still only four weeks behind in development. She weighed in at 15 ounces!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! There seemed to be a lot more amniotic fluid today and she had turned another flip for us! Shea and I are so thankful to our Lord and Savior. He has brought us this far and changed us forever! He is the only one that knows the future outcome of Mary Glenn but my trust is definitely in Him! We have seen Him work with our baby and we know He has complete control!!! What a wonderful feeling!

Please continue to pray for our visit October 6th! I am so anxious for that day to get here and get the diagnosis! I pray that God is preparing our hearts for what Dr. Perry will have to say. I have two steroid shots next week, glucose test, ultraound, and doctor visit...please pray for positive results!!! I hear that the glucose test is pretty rough but if you don't pass the first one that the second one is even worse!

I will check in with you guys later! Hope you all are doing well!

In His Love,
Bethany

A Fun Weekend

2008-09-22T20:17:00.000-07:00

First things first...Congratulations to our friends Shay and Rob Tatum on the birth of their second daughter Rhodes (big sister is Addison) and also to Julie and Corey Tator and the birth of their second child Olivia (big brother is Ethan). We hope you all are doing well and hope to meet the new additions soon!

Shea and I had a very enjoyable weekend. Friday night we spent time with our Sunday school class at Daniel and Lucy Jussley's house. It was nice to relax and visit with friends. Afterwards I went and met up with friends Jamie, Katie and Susan. It is always so much fun hanging out with friends...we remembered old times. I know the people around us thought we were absolutely crazy!!!

Saturday was the Tri Delta reunion for the Phi Epsilon chapter at USM. It was so wonderful seeing everyone. It had been a long time. We got to visit the new sorority house which was absolutely gorgeous!!! In saying that our times at Panhell will always be remembered! It began raining at game time so Shea and I left and took the easy way out and watched the Golden Eagles lose to Marshall on tv. In fact, we watched all in state universities lose Saturday...YUCK! Saturday night we spent time with our friends and neighbors Brandi and Tony...atleast we got to watch Tony's Tigers (LSU) win!!!

Sunday was a day to praise our Lord! We had a great sermon...one of those sermons you feel like is being spoken directly to you and no one else. I would like to thank Dr. Paul Long for his message.

As far as baby Mary Glenn not much has changed. I have felt her move on occasions...nothing consistent...but it is still reassuring. Shea and I try and wait patiently for October 6th. I try not to think about what the visit may reveal to us but it is extremely hard to think about anything else. There are so many "what ifs" and I am ready to get some things answered. I know that only one person knows the real answer though and I will focus on His word. God is good!!! He gives me the strength each day to get up and get through each day. I am very thankful to call Him my Lord and Savior.

Thanks again for all of the thoughts and prayers. The power of prayer is such an awesome thing!!! Please pray for our visit on October 6th: pray for Dr. Perry as he gives us a diagnosis, for Shea and I that we can have complete peace of his diagnosis, for Mary Glenn and her health, for our family and friends, for the nurses that will assist Dr. Perry, and everyone invovled to understand the importance of using Mary Glenn to glorifying Him! As always continue to pray for God's will. God has given Shea and I so many things and has changed our lives forever since August 20th! PRAISE HIM!!!

I hope to learn how to post pictures soon. I am slowly learning how to blog!

In His Love,
Bethany

Quick Update

2008-09-19T06:34:00.001-07:00

I promise to post more details this weekend but for now I will give a quick update on our doctor visit from yesterday.

The ultrasound went well...Mary Glenn has grown another week...so we are still 4 weeks behind in growth. She didn't gain any more ounces but did gain some grams...this is normal and not to worry. For a 21 week old baby she is right on track in her weight. We didn't discuss much with Dr. Benton. He stressed to us that the appointment with Dr. Perry on October 6th is VERY CRITICAL and IMPORTANT. Dr. Perry will be able to look over the baby from head to toe specifically looking for birth defects and any chromosomal disorders. After this appointment we will know more about delivery.

Shea and I ask that everyone begin praying for us and Dr. Perry for our October 6th visit. We pray that Mary Glenn is healthy and only just a small baby, but also that God grant us peace for whatever His will may be. Continue to pray for strength, wisdom, guidance, and peace for everyone involved and that God prepare our hearts for the future. Mary Glenn has the high chance of having many problems...we just pray that Shea, our families, and I are ready for what is to come.

A special note to Dr. Benton and Krystal...you guys are so wonderful and Shea and I are very thankful that God brought you into our lives.

In His Love,
Bethany

Encouraged

2008-09-18T20:21:00.000-07:00

I am continually amazed. Amazed at how insignificant I feel when God shows me his mighty hand. I feel inspired and empowered, but very, very small. He is such an awesome God. So, many things have come into my life because of the grace of God. Bethany and I are blessed with so many friends and family, that many people are amazed. I don't see how we would make it without you.

The Lord Our God has seen fit to comfort Bethany and I this week with a very positive Dr.'s visit. There is tremendously more fluid around the baby. So much so that she had flipped upside down in the womb. She was moving her legs and arms and the measurements continue to show interval growth. We got to bring home a DVD of her today and have just about burned a hole through it. We really need your prayers for our Oct. 6 visit with the specialist, Dr. Perry, in Jackson. It will be critical in determining if there are any defects or markers for defects. Mary Glenn is still about 3 to 4 weeks behind Bethany in gestation.

In the coming weeks, Bethany will begin taking steroid shots to help expedite Mary Glenn's lung development. She will also begin fetal assessments to monitor the baby's vital signs and other distress markers. This is unchartered territory for us, so everyone say an extra prayer for strength and faith as we navigate this course.

It is very hard for me to contain my excitement. I try to guard my heart, but I can't get past the fact that we are not supposed (by medical theory) to be here or experiencing these things. God has revealed himself to Bethany and I in a mighty way, but we must still seek his purpose. I have prayed since finding out I would be a daddy for the Lord to give us a healty baby, if it was His will. And that if it wasn't His will to give me the faith and strength to accept it. He held up his end of the deal. He gave me that strength. He revealed parts of His will to me. So, this has already been a miracle. No matter the outcome. So, it is my job to continue to seek God's holy purpose and see that His will is done. If you are reading this and you don't know the peace that only Jesus Christ can give, I urge you to seek that peace. No matter what our world of humanism, Oprahism, and modern science says, God is real. He answers the prayers of His people. He is a God of love, but also a just God of wrath. So I beckon you to submit your life to Him.

Please continue to pray for Bethany, Mary Glenn and I. And also for our families, friends, our pastors and church as they minister to us. If you have prayed for us in the past, I want you to know that your prayers have been heard by God, felt by us and caused many miracles to occur. Thank all of you, but most of all praise be to God.

In His Grace,
Shea Mc

Quick Update

2008-09-17T04:12:00.000-07:00

Hello to All:

I apologize for not blogging more frequently but we really haven't had any changes since last Friday. Shea and I enjoyed a relaxing weekend at home...spending time together and watching college football. Our Golden Eagles won and beat Arkansas State but the MS State Bulldogs couldn't pull it off in a game against the ranked tigers of Auburn. Sunday after church we celebrated our niece's 8th birthday! Shea's brother Marty and our nephew Lance were home from Texas due to Hurricane Ike so we enjoyed visiting with them!

The work week has been busy for both of us. I personally like it this way because it keeps my mind going in different directions and not strictly focused on the baby. But I would be telling a lie if I didn't say that most of time I am thinking about Mary Glenn. Is she moving? Has she grown? Does she still have a heartbeat? Why can't I feel her move? Are her kidneys functioning? The list can go on and on. I worry constantly and just pray that God can continue to give me peace. Most of you know that I plan things out...but right now God is making my plans and I am trying so hard to let go and be patient. I am sure that His plan is much better and bigger than mine!!!

I would like to remind everyone of our doctor's appointment tomorrow...Sept. 18th at 11:00. We will first have an ultrasound and if Mary Glenn still has a heartbeat and is growing we will visit with Dr. Benton. I will be 24 weeks and 5 days tomorrow so I pray that she is 20 weeks and 5 days and still growing!!! Please pray that God give us peace tomorrow no matter the news we will receive. As always pray for God's will to be done. Don't forget to pray for our family who is also on pins and needles every time we go for a visit. Also pray for Dr. Benton, Krystal, and the nurses...they are so awesome and have been there for us 100%!!! I couldn't ask for anything better.

I will post again tomorrow after our visit as long as it is the Lord's will.

In His Wonderful Name,
Bethany

Mary Glenn McNease

2008-09-12T17:52:00.000-07:00

Shea and I have been asked if we have decided on a name for our baby girl...the answer is YES! Our little girl will be named Mary Glenn McNease. Mary is my grandmother's name and also Shea mother's name. Glenn is my mother's maiden name and also my middle name.

Well we got to see Mary Glenn today. We were only suppose to check for a heartbeat but Krystal and I couldn't stand it and had to look around a little bit. Things still look like they are progressing. She had a very strong heartbeat...159 beats a minute!!! She has grown another week and gained appx 3 ounces (12 ounces total or 340 grams). Krystal said her head was much rounder this week than last which is a good sign. She has moved down lower in my stomach too. She was resting today when we saw her but she did move her little arm for us. We have about the same or a little more aminiotic fluid than last week which is a good sign that the kidneys are still functioning. After our ultrasound we waited to see Dr. Benton to tell him the good news...he was very encouraged by the way she looked today but also made us realize we still have a LONG way to go.

We are definitely not out of the woods yet so keep those prayers coming!!! Shea and I are very blessed to have everyone praying for us...and I promise you Mary Glenn hears them too! We are going through a lot of ups and downs in life right now and it is reassuring to have friends and family with you during the journey. A friend of mine told me about a song from MercyMe named Bring the Rain. I have posted the lyrics below.

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain

I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain

[1st Chorus]

Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
I'm forever singing

Holy holy holy
you are holy
you are holy

This song reflects my feelings exactly...whatever it takes to praise God we must do. He has blessed us thus far with Mary Glenn. I pray that her progress continues and she will be a healthy baby upon delivery. But we must pray for His will and use Mary Glenn to glorify His name...now, tomorrow, and forever. HE IS HOLY!!!

Begin praying for our next doctor's appointment in Hattiesburg on Thursday (9/18/08) at 11:00. We will have another ultrasound and then visit with Dr. Benton.

We love you all!
Bethany

Giving In...

2008-09-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

Hello to All:

I wanted to make a quick post and ask for special prayers! I couldn't wait any longer and I am going to have an ultrasound tomorrow, Friday, September 12th at 4:15. We will only check for a heartbeat but atleast it will ease my mind on what is going on inside me.

I have felt a little movement from the baby, but the baby is still very small and all her movements I will not be able to feel quite yet. But in saying that when I go a day and haven't felt anything I begin to start worrying...it's just me being human!

Thank you all for your continued support and prayers. Shea and I feel them every moment of every day. I will post an update tomorrow night after our appointment...God willing.

Love you all!
Bethany

Connecting The Dots

2008-09-09T03:54:00.000-07:00

I have been waiting until I thought the time was right to type this blog. I feel so strongly that the Lord is telling me to do it now, so I will try. Let me apologize in advance for it's length. The goal here is to try and show in words how, in the words of H.G. Spafford (It Is Well With My Soul), my faith has been made sight. I told you in an earlier blog that nothing is random. So let's look at the actual events up to this point and how God's hand has been leading and directing us.

Now it goes without saying that God's hand is in the fact that we each get to live and breathe, so we'll concentrate more on the events of our experience with our baby. I will try to limit these as much as possible and this list is in no way comprehensive:

1. We changed doctors early in this pregnancy. Bethany and I did this for totally selfish reasons and we readily admit it. And that is why it is all the more true that God will accomplish his will even when we don't seek it. I am not slighting our former physician, who is wonderful, and our switch had nothing to do with anything service oriented, medical or religious. I just could not imagine going through these times without Dr. Louis Benton. He is a true man of God, and has ministered to Bethany and I, not only medically, but spiritually. Our God is sovereign and He does what He pleases.

2. On the day we got the terrible news, it appeared that we would have to wait in agony to see the specialist. And then again, when we found out this encouraging news, we were told it would be a week. In both instances, while the appointment was being made there were cancellations which allowed us to see the specialist within 24 hours. I believe God was merciful in both respects to me and my wife and intervened in order to do so.

3. The most obvious example in all of this is that we were told our baby would not survive. We spent two weeks going to the clinic so that Crystal (I think of her as our ultrasound tech.) could check for a heartbeat to see if it was time to deliver our stillborn child. This last Thursday, Bethany called me and asked if she should pack a bag in case we had to stay in the hospital. I told her yes, because we both felt like there would not be a heartbeat. We had been praying for the Lord to be merciful, and end our baby's suffering if it was his will. Well, as you know, it wasn't. Our baby was still alive, not only that it had grown, produced amniotic fluid, and has kidney's and a bladder. I don't think this needs any theological explanation.

4. The part of the story that is not known is what I am about to tell you. It is very personal, but I feel like it is the greatest example of God's leading hand and the power of prayer. Upon hearing the news that our child would not survive, we were presented with three options. The first was wait and see if the heart continues to beat until term and deliver a child without lungs. This was statistically the least likely. Second, wait until the heart stopped and deliver a stillborn child. An option all the physicians felt was very likely and short term. And last, terminate the pregnancy by evacuating the uterus. This is medically called a therapeutic intervention. At first, we had no idea what to do. Personally, I did not want my precious wife to suffer or be stigmatized by waiting for our baby to die. Yet, I didn't know how to view a therapeutic intervention from a Christian standpoint. After council with pastors, family and doctors we turned to prayer. And asked for guidance and that God's will be revealed to us. After earnestly seeking the Lord we both emerged with the peace that we could wait on the Lord. We chose to carry the baby and for the next two week awaited the inevitable death of our child. As you know that is not what has happened and God has seen fit to intervene and bless us once again.

I do not know what the outcome of this journey will be. Our baby could be born a little on the small side and healthy, it could have a chromosomal abnormality, or it could expire as I type this. No matter the outcome, it has been miraculous in my life, my wife's life and in our marriage. I have been able to experience the gracious, beautiful hand of the master sculpting me, a formless piece of clay. And I have developed a love for my wife that surpasses the false and phony ideals of Hollywood and society in general. It is a love that is unconditional and Christ based.

As I stated before, I apologize for the length of this post. Keep in mind also that these are just a few of the examples we have seen in the past weeks of God's sovereignty and righteousness.

In His Grace,
Shea Mc

Cautiously Optimistic

2008-09-05T16:00:00.000-07:00

Wow...what a last few days. A day of thanksgiving! A day to glorify our God! Someone described our past two weeks like a roller coaster that we can't get off. That is correct but to be honest I am not sure God is ready for us to finish the ride...I believe He has a lot more in store for us. We feel lucky that he has chosen us to take on this situation...we prepare more and more each day...but I don't think we will ever be fully prepared...we are only human.

We went to see the specialist yesterday, Dr. Ken Perry. He is another great doctor. The Lord has blessed us with amazing and talented doctors. So for the details...There is more amniotic fluid than two weeks ago which is a good sign. There is a bladder! We (no medical background) saw one kidney, but Dr. Perry believes there are two. Because we are not at a normal stage of amniotic fluid it is still hard to see everything but we see things more clearly than before. In two weeks the baby has grown two weeks. Yippee!! That is really good news. But the baby is also still 4 weeks behind in development. Right now I am 23 weeks and the baby is measuring 19 weeks. The doctor did find two factors that are VERY common in a pregnancy yet they are also factors in chromosomal disorders. In saying that Shea and I do not have a history of these disorders and I am still young in the doctor's eyes which is good. BUT there is always a possibility. To be honest with you all I am trying not to focus on that news...but trying to stay level headed. Our baby is by no means "out of the woods", but we do have more hope than we did two weeks ago.

So our first question was..."what now?". We will see Dr. Benton in Hattiesburg in two weeks...September 18th at 11:00. At this visit we will have another ultrasound and then visit with Dr. Benton. This ultrasound is VERY important. If things are moving on track we should have grown another two weeks and there should be more amniotic fluid...so begin praying! Then we will visit with Dr. Perry two weeks after we see Dr. Benton for another ultrasound. The visit with Dr. Perry is October 6th at 11:00. If things are still progressing we will begin doing fetal assessments around 28 weeks making sure that our baby girl is not in distress. Why 28 weeks??? Well the baby still has a chance of survival outside the womb at 28 weeks. In a normal pregnancy the baby could maybe survive around 24 weeks outside the womb...but as we all know...my pregnancy is by no means normal. If we can make it to 34 weeks then we have even a better chance of survival outside the womb. In a perfect world I would be able to carry the baby much longer and if the baby is okay inside the womb then I feel the doctors will wait until she is ready...but this is a long way away and we still have a steep hill to climb.

A lot of questions have been asked over the past two days so I will try to explain some of the more popular questions...
Maybe your dates are wrong? This is not true. We are 23 weeks. Shea and I had an ultrasound at 5 weeks and the baby measured 5 weeks and then another at 7 weeks to make sure we were growing like normal and we measured 7 weeks.
Will the baby catch up inside the womb? No. We are already under the normal curve. We are four weeks behind...but what we want is for us to stay only 4 weeks behind and NOT lose any ground.
What about the baby's organs? The baby's organs do have a chance to mature and be "normal". We will continue to monitor them on a bi-weekly basis.
Will we deliver a "normal" baby? Our baby will never be a 7 lb baby. We do know that we need our baby to be atleast 1 lb at birth...but of course we would like for it to weigh much more.

So basically we now WAIT!!! As you all know I DO NOT like this word. The good Lord knows that WAIT and PATIENCE are not my best qualities. I believe that is why HE is making me learn more about these two words. I am trying so very hard to be patient...but two weeks is a LONG time in my eyes. I wish I could continually monitor her and watch it day by day but that is not in God's plans. Shea and I need more prayers now than ever. Prayers are so important...just ask us and our baby girl.
Specific Prayer Requests:
- For God's will to be done - We are only human and of course we want you all to pray for continued progress and a healthy baby but also we must understand that this may not be His will
- To prepare our family for God's will - There are so many things that can happen now, the baby may not survive, the baby may be VERY premature, the baby could have chromosomal disorders, the baby may be premature but healthy
- Strength, guidance, and wisdom for Shea and I
- Patience for myself
- Our baby girl - We all know she is definitely a fighter, we just want her to stay healthy
- Blessings to our Lord and Savior and that Shea and I use this baby to glorify Him

As most of you can probably tell I give more details and Shea gives more analytical views...I am an accountant and he is an engineer...what else do I have to say. I am sure Shea will post later. I will be checking in later also and WAITING and PRAYING!!! We love you all and hopefully good news will continue.

A friend gave us these two verses yesterday:

Lamentations 3:22-23: "Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness."

Psalm 120:1: "In my distress I cried to the Lord, and He heard me."

In His loving word,
Bethany

Curveballs

2008-09-04T19:10:00.000-07:00

I could never hit a curveball! I remember the first one I ever saw. I was playing Little League in Prentiss, MS. The team was called the Braves and we essentially were mediocre at best. Actually, we were probably the most mismatched group of misfits in the league. I remember going to bat against the Tigers, who were the best team in the league. The pitcher was in 5th grade, which was huge to a 3rd grader like me. When he let'er fly, the ball didn't come straight like in practice. It's gonna hit me in the head, I thought. The ball went nuts! It did not hit my head, but instead fell perfectly in the strike zone. The sound of Mr. Richard Ward's voice (the umpire) rang out STRIIIIIIIIIKKKKKKE!!!!, as I got up from the fetal position and tried to stand back in the box.

The last two weeks of my life have felt like that. Every pitch has been a curve ball. There is a difference now though. The pitcher is also my coach. Did I lose you? See God has been pitching life at me and, for the most part, has thrown me fastballs. In retrospect, and consideration of the last two weeks, He has allowed me to play tee ball! Yet, He is also coaching me. Teaching me to time the pitch, to wait on his will. Now let me tell you, He has a crazy change-up. And Bethany and I saw it today.

If you haven't seen Bet's blog you should check it out. She is more detail oriented. On the ultrasound today there was more amniotic fluid than before, we found the bladder and renal arteries, which were not evident on past ultrasounds. The baby has grown two weeks in the last two weeks and has gained one ounce in the last six days. This is awesome, but we need to guard our hearts. We will go to the specialist tomorrow in Jackson and see what is going on. We ask that everyone pray for God's will to be done. I don't want to throw the word miracle around about this just yet. That may not be what God is doing. So we wait. There have been so many miracles in this process that it is unreal. As it should be.

You know, I still can't hit a curveball. But with the coaching of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I seem to hit a lot more of life's curveballs. And occasionally get one out of the park.

I want to leave you with some verses I have been studying, that have let me know that Christ is the greatest coach of all time. He has the perfect gameplan. His is and always will be undefeated. If He picks you for His team, I suggest you join. No matter how bad you are, he can always use you. He took me, and I can't hit a curveball!

Proverbs 19:21 - There are many plans in a man's heart, Nevertheless the Lord's counsel - that will stand.

Proverbs 21:30 - There is no wisdom or understanding or counsel against the Lord.

Job 42:2 - I know that You can do everything, And that no purpose of Yours can be withheld from You.

Ephesians 1:11 - In Him also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestined according to the purpose of Him who works all things, according to the counsel of His will, that we who first trusted in Christ should be to the praise of His glory.

In His Grace,
Shea Mc

IT'S A GIRL!!!

2008-09-04T18:03:00.000-07:00

GOD is in control! Peter 1: 5-7 : "...who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ,..."

As posted last night Shea and I went for an ultrasound today at 4:15. Before I begin this post I must let you all know that I was prepared today for God to take our baby. All day long I had a feeling that today might be the day. I felt this way so much that I even packed a bag for the hospital! As we began our ultrasound today, with Crystal, we found the heartbeat instantly. It was so clear. In fact the baby looked so much different to me today compared to last Friday that I even said something to Crystal.

Well then Crystal began to look around a little more...she started asking questions about our visit in Jackson two weeks ago. Her face changed instantly and she asked us if a bladder was evident in Jackson. We told her that the doctor did not think there was one, but if there was a bladder and kidney it was blended in with other parts of the baby. Well today was a little different. There seems to be more amniotic fluid than before...there seems to be a bladder...there seems to be renal arteries which would hopefully be a sign of kidney activity. In saying that the kidney was NOT found today on the ultrasound. She immediately went to get another ultrasound technician and Dr. Benton. Dr. Benton and the two technicians looked everything over and he feels there is a need for us to go back to Jackson to see the specialist again, Dr. Ken Perry. The baby moved around today, before it didn't move. Crystal was able to see lots of areas of the baby that were so unclear to us before. Crystal looked at me and smiled...IT'S A GIRL!!!! How precious is our God??? Shea, Crystal, Dr. Benton, and I prayed for awhile and then we all looked at each other in shock. No one can tell us what is going on and there are no explanations.

Now with all of this being said...there is still something wrong with our baby girl. She is still a little over 3 weeks behind in development...but she has grown appx 2 weeks since we found out the news. We were not expecting her to grow much more. Only God knows what is in store and what will happen next. Shea and I are not going to get our hopes up but we stand in awe of God and how He is working in our lives.

We ask for everyone to pray for God's will. Ever since we prayed with Knox Baird (our pastor at First Presbyterian Church) I have asked for God's will to be done. Shea and I aren't sure why God chose us to battle this situation but we DO NOT question him. We continue to be thankful for our baby. We will continue to glorify His name. Today he allowed us to see our baby girl...maybe this was His will...we do not know but we are THANKFUL for Him. Please pray for us as we go tomorrow at 8:00 in the morning to see Dr. Perry for another visit and another look at our precious baby.

Here are some things we would like for you all to pray:

- For God's will to be done
- For Dr. Perry (When Dr. Benton told him what was going on today he told him..."Louis I am not sure who all is praying for them but please tell them to pray for me!!"
- For our precious baby girl
- For Shea and I (strength, guidance, wisdom, peace no matter the outcome)
- That this baby be used to glorify our God and bring others to know Him
- For Dr. Benton and our wonderful ultrasound technician Crystal

Philippians 4:6 - "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God."

Prayer for Peace
"Father, how thankful we are for Your love, that You love us enough to care for us when we can't care for ourselves. Sometimes little things that we ought to be able to handle, we can't. But You've made an awesome promise, and all heaven stands behind it. Grant us the wisdom to live in a peace that passes all human understanding. Keep and guard our hearts in Christ Jesus through every trail in life. We ask this in the name of Jesus and for His sake. Amen."

We love you all. I am sure Shea will post later tonight too so make sure you check out his blog. Thanks again for your continued support and prayers. Prayers are so powerful and God listens!

In His Love,
Bethany

Nothing Is Random

2008-09-03T18:37:00.000-07:00

Hello to all, I am Shea McNease. I have been introduced in earlier blogs by the best half of this household, my wife Bethany. She has amazed me through this whole ordeal and our marriage has changed and become enriched through the grace of God. I wanted to take this opportunity to randomly say that nothing is random. It is my hope, that one day, I can string all the events that have lead up to now to show everyone out there how consistent they are. It seems that everyday I take a trip back in further and further in time to see a person, event or an insignificant (at the time) decision that brought me to the point I am at tonight. Feebley seeking the will of God and anxiously waiting for His mercy. I have tried to tell people that have lead me by example that they did God's will in my life. It is daunting to think about how far back the preparation for this event in my life has gone. Probably, as far back as Sunday School as a kid or VBS in the summers.

This all culminates in me knowing that God is sovereign. The ultrasound that was performed on our baby on August 20 caught everyone, including the super sweet ultrasound tech, off guard. I can tell you this for sure, it did not catch God off guard. And that is comforting. To know that I have a Savior that is all knowing and that all things work together for His good purpose.

Many people have said to Bethany and I that they have been amazed by our reaction to this devastating series of events. I can not say this often enough, it has nothing to do with us. God's grace is the only reason we turned to God. If not for His grace, we could have just as easily cursed Him or blamed Him. This is because we are weak, temporal and depraved beings. But praise be to God that He had preordained, before the foundation of the world, that we would praise Him and glorify Him even in this valley.

I have decided that in my life I am through taking chances. I don't have to take them. I have a direct line to the throne of God, through His Son, Jesus Christ. It is called prayer. And because of all that has happened I have learned to "Be still and know that He is God..." God will reveal His will when He sees fit, not when we want Him to do so. Yet, without an active prayer life, I don't think we can fully know the revelation of His will. What a comfort to know that nothing is to chance. Everything is ordained by the author and the finisher of the universe. It is my job to seek His bountiful purpose in my life and to see that I carry out His will.

I'll finish with this. Please pray for Bethany and myself. For Bethany, that she will have strength and patience to see that God's will is done. For me, the same, but also that I might minister to her daily because in the end, I am a man. And I can never know what she is feeling or the bonds that she has. Prayer is real and God answers them. Because of those praying for us, we have been able to make it thus far and we are eternally grateful.

In His Grace,

Shea Mc

Waiting on God

2008-09-03T17:59:00.000-07:00

As I type tonight I feel the need to let you all know that I am in need of prayers. When we began this journey two weeks ago today. I asked God for Shea and I to do His will. Then as Shea and I decided to let God perform His work on us and wait for his timing with our child I began to pray for God's quick mercy. The waiting part is not as easy as it is said. I am struggling in the patience department. But as I wait I am thankful that God is with me. This morning as I was reading the book I spoke about earlier...God is in Control...I read about God's comfort. This book reminded me that God is continuously our comfort. His comfort is available at all times and in all parts of our walk with Him. That is very exciting!!! I quote from the book: "I wonder how many times have you said to the Lord, "Dear Lord, I want You to use me. I don't want a lot of pain in my life, but I'm willing to be used." Sorry, God does not work that way. If you want to be used by God, get ready to hurt. If you want to be a comforter, then get ready to suffer. If you want to be someone who can really encourage others, then you must be a person who's walked through the valley of discouragement, surround by hurt, suffering, and loss. God is equipping you and me to be vessels of love, healing, and restoration to a world of people filled with pain, hate, and fear."

Also during this journey I have told many that Shea and I want to use our child to glorify Him. I have also stated that we are thankful for this child and the way that God has chosen it to change our lives. I am a different person that I was two weeks ago before I found out about our baby's illness, but I am a better person. My life changed in an instant but it changed for the better. I have never been this close to God. I have never wanted to know Him better like I do now. I am eager to learn His word. That is comforting to me. If I have to suffer during this valley to become this better person then it is well worth it.

Shea and I go for another ultrasound tomorrow at 4:15. Please say a special prayer for us at this time. We ask that God to give us strength during the day as we prepare to go for this visit. We ask for God to prepare us for the results of the ultrasound and for us to understand whatever the results may be that God will be with us as we wait on His timing. Also, please ask God to give me patience during this "waiting" period in our life.

With His Love,

Bethany

Our Story

2008-09-01T04:28:00.001-07:00

To all of you who do not know us our names are Shea and Bethany McNease. We have been married for almost 3 1/2 years. We live in Sumrall, MS with our two dogs, Lily (a black lab) and Marley (a pocket beagle). Shea is a graduate of Mississippi State University in civil engineering and is now a partner at Shows Dearman and Waits Civil Engineer firm in Hattiesburg, MS. I (Bethany) am a graduate of the University of Southern Mississippi in accounting with a master's degree in business administration from William Carey College and now I am a controller for M.G. Dyess, Inc. in Bassfield, MS.

Just a little background...Shea and I love life and love doing just about anything. We are surrounded by wonderful family and friends. Both of our families are from around the area so we enjoy doing things with them...ALOT! Shea loves to hunt and fish. In fact as I am typing this blog Shea and my father are trying to dove hunt as Hurricane Gustav is on his way for a visit!!! In the next couple of months Shea will enjoy duck hunting in the mornings and deer hunting in the afternoons! During the summers we spend some time at my family's fishing camp in Gautier, MS. I love to hunt and fish too...just not as much as my husband...haha! I love to play tennis too...but haven't played since May. I am ready to get back on the courts soon! I think most people would classify Shea and I as fun people. We love to try new adventures and our favorite vacation spot would have to be Disney World. We went there on our honeymoon!

In April 2008 Shea and I found out that we were expecting our first baby. How exciting! We have been overcome with emotions since that point...excited...nervous...worried...anxious...! I am 22 1/2 weeks along in the pregnancy to date. Now for the news that we have faced the past two weeks.

Shea and I, along with our mothers, went for our 20 week ultrasound, Wednesday, August 20th. As I lay down for the ultrasound technician to began I was so excited to be finding out the sex of our baby. When she began we knew instantly that something wasn't right. You could tell in her voice and then the questions began...have you lost amniotic fluid...are you scheduled to see your doctor...when was your last ultrasound...etc??? She took lots of pictures and told us something was not right with our pregnancy...the baby doesn't have much amniotic fluid which was making it hard to see the baby. She informed us that the baby measured 16 1/2 weeks to 17 weeks (almost 4 weeks behind schedule) and we would need to see the doctor ASAP. I lay there in total shock...I didn't know what to expect or what was going to happen. Our doctor, Dr. Louis Benton, was in emergency surgery but another doctor would see us to explain the diagnosis. It didn't seem that our baby had developed kidneys. The kidneys produce amniotic fluid which aide in the development of the lungs. With no amniotic fluid...there isn't anything there to help develop the lungs so in the end your baby can not breathe. This doctor gave us little to no hope. I asked that I see my doctor before any decisions were made. Thankfully Dr. Benton was on his way. Let me pause here and let everyone know that Dr. Benton is not only an awesome doctor but an unbelievable man...a man of God. He comes in and HIGHLY recommends us to go to a specialist in Jackson. He didn't believe there was much hope either but alteast we may get some questions answered on why this has occurred. After praying with my family Dr. Benton sent us to Jackson to meet with Dr. Perry at 2:00 that day.

Shea and I along with my mother and father and Shea's mother went to Jackson. Dr. Perry was extremely informative and took a lot of time to explain all of this to Shea and I. The diagnosis was the same. The baby did not have kidneys or a bladder. There could be several reasons for this to occur. This could be genetic, chromosomal, or just a birth defect. We were hoping to do an amniocentesis but there was not enough amniotic fluid to do one. The doctor explained to us that the baby could live until birth. If so the baby would only survive for hours. This was the least likely thing to happen. He went on to let us know that in most cases the baby will only live for a few more weeks. The baby's heart will stop and then I would deliver a still born child. WOW! I was not prepared for this at all! I was prepared to find out the sex of our child and start shopping, but God had a different plan for us...a much bigger plan!

In the next days Shea and I spent time talking with our pastors, doctors, and reading scripture. After a long talk with Dr. Benton we decided that our situation was in God's hands. We needed to let God decide what was best for us. From the beginning I had asked for everyone to pray for God's will. I asked for God to shout His will to Shea and I. We learned a lot about ourselves in these few days. We learned about God. Shea and I both are Christians, but we knew we lacked in a few areas of our life with Him. In fact in the previous months God had already started working on Shea and I preparing us for this day. We are so thankful for Him. We have realized that we are totally dependent on Him. I am reading a book titled God is in Control by Charles Stanley that explains that God sometimes will send us into a valley...especially when He feels we need it most...and remind us that He is real. Here is a quote from the book: "God knows how to wrench from us everything we depend upon. That's really what He's up to in the valley experience. His ultimate purpose is to remove from us - emotionally, physically or materially - every single, solitary thing so that Jesus Christ has no competition as Lord in our life. Then there are no challenges to His rule, His reign, and His lordship in our life." Since the day this happened I have told several people that God has placed upon me a peace that I can not describe. The peace came over me instantly that day. Please don't get me wrong...Shea and I have had our moments and I think if we didn't we wouldn't be considered human...but if it weren't for our Lord we would not be able to get out of bed each morning. I have learned a lot about God's peace the past two weeks. I am going to give another quote from the book I am reading. The book was describing two types of peace...Peace with God and Peace of God. I had known Peace with God but until this tragedy I had never felt the peace of God. The peace of God is the peace I was talking about earlier. The book says, "But after you and I become children of God, we still have to live in this world full of anxieties and fears and frustrations. The Bible talks about the peace of God that surpasses all human understanding. This peace that God gives is a peace that is not determined by circumstances. The peace of God isn't something that you and I are brought into through some change of circumstance. Neither is it a matter of chance or of luck. It is a matter of choice. The peace of God dwelling and ruling in our heart and mind in an unshakable fashion is a choice we make. Unshakable peace means that it is steady and strong. It is unflinching and unwavering. No matter what happens, that peace remains and we are confident and steadfast. We are not thrown off balance no matter what we face in life."

Shea and I have made a commitment to ourselves and God that we will use this baby to glorify Him. We do not know why this has happened to us, but we do not question God. We continue to live our life in the eyes of the Lord. We are thankful that God chose us to use our child to spread the word of God and to show others that He is good!!! We do not know what is in store for us but we do know that He will be with us every step of the way! How is awesome is that???

Since the news of the illness of our child we have had several more ultrasounds. As said before we have a wonderful doctor and also ultrasound technician. They allow us to look at the baby anytime we feel need. As of Friday, August 29th the condition of the baby has not changed. It still had a strong heartbeat...156! Shea and I will wait on God's plan. We continually ask for God to show us His will. We pray for guidance, wisdom, and strength through this journey. I will leave for now will the following verses that I have found comforting.

Romans 8:28 - "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose."

Romans 8:18 - "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us."

Psalm 34:4 - "I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears."

John 16:33 - "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."

Joshua 1:9 - "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

Psalm 121:7 - "The Lord shall preserve you from all evil; He shall preserve your soul."

Thanks for the prayers. We will continue to keep you posted through our journey.

With Love,

Bethany and Shea

First Time Blogging...

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Shea and I have decided to blog...so give us a little time to get learn how to navigate around this new adventure. Hopefully this afternoon I will be able to make a longer post and add some pictures! Check back soon!