Just an Update...

I realized that I hadn't posted in a month or so...I can't say that we have been doing a lot but here a few pictures...

Below are Gunner & Cannon Loftin. You may remember them from November. These twins were in the NICU with Mary Glenn and also their parents are close friends to Shea & I. Also there is a picture of the office girls from a recent Friday when we all wore red for the Heart Association.





The last Saturday in January my sister had some friends over for a bonfire and Shea and his friend Jeremy played guitars. It was ALOT of fun. Shea and Jeremy love to play together...







This past weekend Shea's friend and partner with work got married in Destin. Our friends Lorin & Shawn Jones went with us to the beach and we stayed in a beautiful condo...Thanks David! We had a GREAT weekend getaway. Congratulations to Kyle and Stacie. The weekend was perfect for a wedding...the sun was shining and the setting on the beach was picture perfect. Friday night we had a fun time at Rum Rummers in Baytowne Wharf and Satuday night our age showed as we ate and then went back to the condo!!!! Too Funny!






On a different note lately I have had a lot of people ask how Shea and I are doing and if we have seen the doctor and our plans for the future in regards to children. Shea and I are doing well and we are very fortunate to have the love and support from friends and family. I still have moments, but I think that is normal. I often think of the "what ifs" and it gives me an array of different emotions. What if Mary Glenn wasn't sick and she was with me now...what would I be doing? What would she be like? Or what if Shea and I can't have anymore children...what if the Lord's will is to not have anymore. Or I will hear someone complain about how their child didn't sleep or cried all night...I think to myself if only I had that problem. I want so badly to stop them and say be thankful...but I don't...I keep my comments to myself. When these emotions over take my every thought I turn it over. I can not tell you how many times during the coarse of a day I say..."Dear Lord - HELP!" That is the only thing that I know to do. I ask the Lord to take over and give my mind a rest. I know that God's plan is bigger and better than anything that Shea or I could imagine, but it is still so difficult to accept when I am a control freak. I like to plan it out accordingly and this I can't. Shea and I did go back to see Dr. Benton in January. After discussions with Dr. Benton, neonatologists at Forrest General, and Dr. Perry in Jackson we do not feel that genetic testing is necessary. We will turn it over to God and let him do His work through us. We will have faith in our Lord. The doctors do not feel that I am at any higher risk with a second pregnancy. So...I know what you all are thinking. When will y'all start trying to have a baby. Well, Shea and I defintiely want children soon. I have to give my body time to heal from my preganacy with Mary Glenn. When the time is right we will try and see what the Lord as in store for us. I keep trying to tell myself that the Lord may not want us to have a child...he may have a different plan. So if the good Lord willing...Shea and I will have another baby...when...I can't answer that...just in God's timing. In saying all of this I ask each of you to say a prayer for Shea and I to help us prepare for our future...whatever that may be...

I hope you all are doing well in the blog world.

Much Love!
Bethany